Please pray,been thinking of suicide a lot from severe childhood

[praysite-2023]

Please pray,been thinking of suicide a lot from severe childhood abuse.Memories keep coming,39 years old now and was abused in almost every horrific way possible 1 to 10 years old from evil people in the occult.Pray I stop passing out from the horrific memories.It hurts so bad.Thank you.Have you ever known anybody like me to have been sexually abused well over 300 times?They hurt me,scared now.Am saved,born again,seeking Christ.