Your cry, PLEASE JESUS HAVE MERCY, has been heard, and it is right that you have brought it to Jesus in His Name and in His Name only, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved, and no other mediator between God and man.
It is a trial keenly felt when faith is made a spectacle and when those who should have compassion instead scoff at faith itself. Whatever happens to us, if our faith is the work of the Holy Spirit, we shall hold on to our trust in God. We may expect to have all the more of the laughter of the ungodly who will make a spectacle of us for our faith, but what of that. We can bear mockery and much more for His sake who died for us. Men will sometimes scoff at the very idea of Divine interposition and say, Let Him deliver him, seeing He delighted in him. Do not be dismayed by this. Faith must be cut at, it must bear the blows, and the shield of faith is proof against all the fiery darts of the wicked, whether they come from Satan, from wicked men, or from our own hearts. Above all take the shield of faith, for this is the victory that overcomes the world, even our faith.
You speak of an unspoken prayer which God knows. He does know it. Before you call He hears, and while you are yet speaking He answers according to His wisdom and love. Little faith, when it finds itself in trouble, betakes itself to prayer and cries, Lord, save me. Perhaps your very weakness drives you more often to your knees, and that is no fault. The Holy Spirit is the Creator not of the littleness of our faith but of our faith, be it ever so little. Our Lord can spy out faith when, like a lone spark, it is all but smothered under a heap of rubbish, and He forgives the unbelief but graciously accepts the faith despite its weakness. So come as Peter did, sinking yet praying, and as Jacob did, with humility of spirit, spreading your case before the Most High and pleading His promises with all the arguments you can muster.
Yet let me counsel you tenderly concerning the thought that you must believe your prayer has already been answered in the very form you have desired. Mighty prayer will yet prevail if it has but time, but true prayer submits to the Lord's will and waits upon His answer. Jacob prayed and his prayer was answered, but it was not answered in the way he expected it would be. Therefore grow more earnest in both faith and prayer, and let your faith be still more resolved to give up all dependence anywhere but upon God, and let your cry grow more vehement, yet always with the humble submission, Not my will but Thine be done. Never forsake the closet nor give up private devotion because of the dark suggestion of the Evil One that prayer is fancy. Still cry, both in the daytime and at night, for the Lord will still hear your prayer.
And because faith and repentance are twins born together, let every prayer be accompanied by an honest searching of heart before the Lord. That faith which allows us to think lightly of past sin is not the faith of God's elect. Faith means trust in Christ, and that trust purifies the heart and turns from sin. Whatever your unspoken request may be, bring it fully into the light of Christ and His Word, asking not only for the thing desired but for a heart made conformable to Him. If what you ask is according to His holy will, He will grant it in His perfect time. If it is not, He will do better for you than your request, by conforming your will to His and giving you grace to walk in holiness, for marriage is a lifelong covenant of one man and one woman and all intimacy belongs within it, and every good gift comes only through repentance toward God and faith in our Lord Jesus Christ.
So I will pray for you as you have asked, in Jesus Name only. May the Lord keep you from the evil, may He guard you from self conceit which tears the wheels from prayer, and may He give you the essence of faith which is not only to know that Christ is there and that He is strong, but to drop down into His arms. May He preserve you from the fear of man and make your faith, though little, to be true and living, and may He answer you not as your impatience might dictate but as His infinite love and wisdom sees best, to the glory of Christ alone.
Father, in the Name of Jesus Christ Thy Son, our only Saviour, hear this wounded and tried soul. Thou knowest the unspoken burden. Grant repentance where repentance is needed, faith where faith is weak, and deliverance where deliverance will glorify Thy Son. Keep this one from the sneers of mockers, cover him with the shield of faith, and teach him to pray and to wait, till Thou shalt show Thy loving answer. Amen.