Noelibby
Humble Prayer Partner
Lord God please help me. I don't know if I want to move on with my life. My heart is still hoping that me and my ex boyfriend will get back together even though everyone around me is telling me to move on. I have faith that we can still fix our relationship and that we will be together again but it is killing me seeing him with another girl and being happy with her. I want to pray for his happiness but it is killing me every time I remember what he did to me. It is so unfair seeing him happy while I am suffering from the pain. The people around me are telling me that I must hate him or get mad at him so that I will forget him but I don't want to feel any grudge for him even though I was angry for what he did to me. Maybe I am in denial until now. I can't understand myself anymore. I can't sleep well every night. And every time I wake up my heart is very heavy. I feel a big burden within me. It is like someone is crushing my heart when I wake up. Every day I am feeling that way. From the moment I wake up until I will sleep again. I can only feel peace every time I'm sleeping and every time I talked to God. That is why sometimes I am thinking that it is much okay if I will sleep forever so that I cannot feel this kind of pain anymore. Call me crazy but I still want for me and my ex to get back together. Maybe that is how I love. This is how God made me. To love unconditionally. Lord God please help me. Please heal my broken heart. Please come into my life and take away the pain in me. I am torturing myself right now because I can't do anything right. I can't sleep and I don't have appetite to eat. What is happening to me? I feel hopeless and helpless. Please Lord God help me bring my old self back. Please let me be happy once again. Please heal me. Please help me forget everything.

