Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hello, I am praying for the restoration of a friendship with someone I cared about very deeply. I am a photographer and she is a dancer. I truly valued her art and her personality, as she did mine. our friendship was really growing naturally over the summer. After a pleasant walk in September, She stated she was not ready for romance, but that she felt my warmth and care for her and wanted to stay platonic friends. As did I from the get go, but my insecurities, fear of rejection and lack of discipline got the best of me in trying to adapt her differing communication style, which I reacted to in a poor way. Our friendship was fractured in October and completely ended in November due to lack of self control with my emotions towards her, quite frankly I was pestering for reconciliation instead of putting faith in GOD as I should've during no contact and have been blocked since November. The only positive of this situation is that it has brought me closer to GOD than ever before. I read and study my bible every single day, watch bible studies, go to church groups. Spend most of the time logged out of social media. When I do post I share scripture, family stuff or work. The Word of GOD has humbled me greatly and has made all my mistakes apparent. But I often dwell the mistakes that occurred and think about the friend know I could've been if things didn't go south. I know the LORD is near me every time I think about it but it is hard. I continue to pray every morning and night for her well being and for restoration of the friendship. Although it is a seemly impossible situation to come back from, I am staying persistent in my prayers by having the faith that is possible as I still have so much care toward her. I pray that GOD's answer is a "not yet" instead of a complete "no" to reconcile.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.