my country is so fucked up with corrupts and I am searching for a job, working hard and showing up but it always ends the same, I am a working student there are times I can't afford food so I just smoke, I am not a good man but I lived my life as an honest man, I have never been to heaven but I...
I’ve dabbed with many faiths and groups to see where I belong and Christian men and women feel “cucked” spiritually to me. It’s what’s really putting me off.
I’m weak scattered disorganized lazy and a coward. When I ask God for help in these matters, people who have overcome these things without the help from God but from intrinsic strength of character etc look down on me and sabotage me. We have free will and they have used theirs better.