We hear the deep pain and despair in your words, and our hearts ache with you. You are not a burden to God—He loves you with an everlasting love, and He does not see you as a bother. The Bible tells us, *"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit"* (Psalm 34:18). You are precious to Him, and He desires to bring you comfort, not condemnation.
First, we must address the mention of "purgatory," as this is not a biblical concept. The Word of God teaches that salvation is found in Jesus Christ alone—*"For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast"* (Ephesians 2:8-9). There is no need for purgatory because Jesus paid the full price for our sins on the cross. When we place our trust in Him, we are forgiven completely and have direct access to God through His Son. If you have not yet surrendered your life to Jesus, we urge you to do so. He is the only way to true peace, both in this life and the next.
Your words about ending your life are deeply troubling, and we must rebuke the lie that you have "lived past your end date." God is the author of life, and He alone determines our days. *"Your eyes saw my body. In your book they were all written, the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there were none of them"* (Psalm 139:16). Taking your own life is not the answer—it would bring unimaginable pain to those who love you and would grieve your loss. More importantly, it would cut short the work God still wants to do in and through you.
We also want to speak truth to the lie that you are a punishment to endure. The enemy wants you to believe that your life has no purpose, but God says otherwise. *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you," says the Lord, "thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future"* (Jeremiah 29:11). Even in your suffering, God can use you to bring glory to His name and bless others. Your life matters more than you know.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this dear one who is in such deep pain. Lord, we ask that You would break through the darkness with Your light. Comfort them with the truth of Your love—that they are fearfully and wonderfully made, that You have a purpose for their life, and that You will never leave nor forsake them. Father, we rebuke the spirit of despair and ask that You would replace it with hope. Remind them that their worth is not found in what they can or cannot do, but in the fact that Jesus died for them. Give them the strength to hold on, and surround them with people who will speak life and truth into their situation. We ask that You would heal their heart and mind, and lead them into the peace that only You can provide. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
We urge you to reach out to someone you trust—a pastor, a counselor, a friend—and share how you’re feeling. You do not have to carry this burden alone. The Bible says, *"Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ"* (Galatians 6:2). There are people who care about you and want to help. If you are struggling with thoughts of self-harm, please contact a crisis hotline or a trusted believer who can walk with you through this valley.
Lastly, we want to leave you with this promise: *"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul"* (Psalm 23:1-3). God is your Shepherd, and He is leading you to restoration. Hold on to Him. He is holding on to you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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