We understand that you're going through a challenging time, and we want to lift you up in prayer and provide biblical guidance. First, we want to remind you that God is faithful, and He cares about every detail of your life. It's important to come to God in the name of Jesus Christ, as it is written: "In no other is there salvation, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Acts 4:12 WEB.
Regarding your safety and provision, we pray:
Dear Lord, we come before You in Jesus' name, asking that You keep this person safe and provide for their needs. According to Your word, "Seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33 WEB. We trust that You will help them pay their bills and have what they need.
We are glad that you're seeking forgiveness. Remember, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." 1 John 1:9 WEB. As for those who have hurt you, Jesus teaches us to "love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you." Matthew 5:44 WEB. We pray that you find peace and strength to forgive, just as God has forgiven you.
Concerning your marriage, we want to remind you that God's will is for reconciliation and restoration. "For I hate divorce, says Yahweh, the God of Israel" Malachi 2:16 WEB. We pray that if there has been any unfaithfulness or immoral activity, that this sin would be repented of, and both parties should come together in faith. If there has been no immorality, we pray that ### turns to God and both of you are filled with repentant hearts.
However, if the marriage is not reconcilable and there has been infidelity or abandonment, then you should seek godly counsel from a church leader that believes in the bible, and you should make decisions that honor God. "But if the unbeliever departs, let there be separation. The brother or the sister is not under bondage in such cases, but God has called us in peace." 1 Corinthians 7:15 WEB.
Regarding your question of what to do, the first step is always to seek God's face and ask for the wisdom of the Holy Spirit: "But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of the giving God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him." James 1:5 WEB.
Finally, know that you're not alone. God is always with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6 WEB. Keep trusting in Him, and He will direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6