We lift you up before the Lord with deep compassion, knowing that the pain you carry—both physical and emotional—is heavy and real. The wounds of childhood abuse run deep, and the bitterness that lingers is a burden no one should have to bear alone. Yet we are grateful you have come before us, for the Lord sees your suffering and longs to bring healing to every broken place in your life.
First, we must address the spiritual foundation of your request. While we understand the pain you are in, we notice that the name of Jesus was not invoked in your plea. This is not a small matter, for Scripture declares, *"There is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus"* (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB). It is only through faith in Jesus Christ that we have access to the Father, and it is in His name that we find true healing, forgiveness, and restoration. If you have not yet surrendered your life to Christ, we urge you to do so now, for *"if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation"* (Romans 10:9-10, WEB). Without Christ, there is no lasting peace or healing—only temporary relief. But in Him, there is hope that does not disappoint.
Your physical pain is not unseen by God. The apostle Paul himself pleaded with the Lord to remove his own "thorn in the flesh," and the Lord responded, *"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"* (2 Corinthians 12:9, WEB). We do not know why the Lord allows suffering, but we trust that He uses it for His glory and our ultimate good. We pray that He would touch your back and bring relief, whether through supernatural healing or the wisdom of godly physicians. *"He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds"* (Psalm 147:3, WEB). May you feel His healing hand upon you, restoring strength to your body and peace to your mind.
Yet the deeper wound you carry is the abuse you endured as a child—a betrayal of the most sacred trust. The bitterness you feel toward your mother and those who harmed you is understandable, but we must warn you that harboring unforgiveness will only deepen your pain. Jesus said, *"But if you don’t forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses"* (Matthew 6:15, WEB). This is not to minimize the evil done to you, but to free *you* from the chains of resentment. Forgiveness does not mean what was done to you was acceptable; it means you release the debt to God, who is the righteous Judge. *"Don’t say, ‘I will pay back evil.’ Wait for Yahweh, and he will save you"* (Proverbs 20:22, WEB). Vengeance belongs to the Lord (Romans 12:19), and He will repay. Your role is to trust Him with your pain.
We also urge you to seek godly counseling, for the Lord often uses His people to bring healing. *"Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ"* (Galatians 6:2, WEB). You do not have to walk this path alone. If you have not already, we encourage you to find a Bible-believing church where you can be surrounded by brothers and sisters in Christ who can support you in prayer and accountability.
Lastly, we must address the danger of allowing bitterness to take root in your heart. The apostle warns, *"Looking carefully lest there be any man who falls short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and many be defiled by it"* (Hebrews 12:15, WEB). Bitterness is a poison that harms you far more than those who wronged you. But the Lord can replace it with His peace if you surrender it to Him.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up this precious soul who has endured unspeakable pain. Lord, You are the God who sees (Genesis 16:13), and You have seen every tear they have cried, every wound inflicted upon them. We ask that You would touch their body and bring healing to their back, restoring strength and comfort where there has been pain. May Your healing power flow through them, renewing their body as only You can do.
But Lord, we know the deepest wounds are those of the heart. The abuse they suffered as a child has left scars that only Your love can heal. Father, we ask that You would break the chains of bitterness and resentment that have bound them. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, who is the Comforter, and replace their pain with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Help them to forgive, not because those who hurt them deserve it, but because You have forgiven them through Christ. Remind them that forgiveness is not excusing sin but releasing the burden to You, the righteous Judge.
Lord, we pray that You would surround them with godly counselors and brothers and sisters in Christ who can walk alongside them in this journey of healing. Lead them to a church where Your Word is preached without compromise, where they can find community and support. Protect them from the enemy’s lies that they are unworthy or beyond Your love. Remind them that they are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and that Your love for them is everlasting.
If they have not yet surrendered their life to You, Lord, we pray that today would be the day of salvation. Open their eyes to see their need for Christ, and soften their heart to receive Him as Lord and Savior. May they experience the fullness of Your grace and the freedom that comes from being Your child.
We rebuke the spirits of pain, bitterness, and despair in the name of Jesus. We declare that this child of Yours will walk in victory, for *"the Lord Yahweh is my strength; he will make my feet like deer’s feet, and will make me to walk on my high places"* (Habakkuk 3:19, WEB). Let them rise from this place of brokenness into the light of Your love, where there is healing, hope, and a future.
In the mighty and precious name of Jesus we pray, Amen.
We will continue to lift you up in prayer, believing that the Lord is at work in your life. Hold fast to Him, for He is your refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1). If you would like further guidance or prayer, do not hesitate to reach out. You are not alone in this. The Lord is with you, and so are we.