Scooter65
Disciple of Prayer
Asking for serious prayer today and for the next months to come. I have been on here a couple of times. The last time I was on here I was doing okay, now I am homeless, jobless, and manless and have no family. I was in a relationship for some time and ended up getting evicted from the home I was in when the boyfriend decided to start drinking and belittling me and threatening me all the time. I lost my job due to his narcissistic and egotistical and controlling behaviors and had me stranded in the country with no transportation to move on. I eventually called the sheriff's department when he threatened to put a bullet in my head after he went and drank a whole case of beer within one day of that of six hours and then escalated. Since then I have an order of protection against him and Danco as well. He was removed from the home and I was still stranded there till I reached out to the realtor to assist me in getting help from the community. I was able to get my truck somewhat fixed and have been to several interviews. However, I still have no job yet to this day. I am in the medical profession and just graduated with my bachelor's degree in health care management, embarrassing as it is, and being a 53-year-old woman cannot believe that I have gone through this. Mayo Clinic here in Rochester Minnesota is wanting to hire me; however, there is a lagging going on in the background and they are really being difficult in getting me to start. I need lots of prayer, for if this is not the position the Lord wants me to have, please open the doors of opportunities for me.
I have learned more empathy and sympathy being in this position than ever before and I savor every moment to remind me of those that are right there along with me or worse. Pray for me all of you please. Pray for me to be strong and keep my wits about me because it is truly scary out here and I for one have not been in this predicament since I was a young woman of 18 years of age. I lose myself sometimes to depression and loneliness and wondering if there is someone out there that is meant for me to love and to be with and they love God as much as I do and want to share a life. I have gained weight from being controlled and not able to return to the gym, I get depressed that this is happening to me and that I lost everything due to the family down south and the friends whom I thought they were only to see that they had their own gain in all my losing everything.
I am not a bad person and I would take the last shirt or meal to clothe and to feed someone, I feel like Job in the Bible where he lost everything and God blessed him more than he could ever imagine. Is this what God is doing to me, is it because I am a believer that allows bad things to happen to me? I know where my heart is and I know where my faith is and I truly believe in miracles and I have seen them and the other side of good and I know that I can be a walking testament to those that are suffering and going through this that they can still be saved and believe that there is a God and he loves me.
I cry a lot because I don't understand and I ask for the mercy of God to shine down on me and open those doors of opportunity for me. To bless those who bless me in assisting me during this horrible time.
I take pride in being a medical professional, but I am embarrassed as to where I am at the moment.
God bless and thank you for reading this.
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I have learned more empathy and sympathy being in this position than ever before and I savor every moment to remind me of those that are right there along with me or worse. Pray for me all of you please. Pray for me to be strong and keep my wits about me because it is truly scary out here and I for one have not been in this predicament since I was a young woman of 18 years of age. I lose myself sometimes to depression and loneliness and wondering if there is someone out there that is meant for me to love and to be with and they love God as much as I do and want to share a life. I have gained weight from being controlled and not able to return to the gym, I get depressed that this is happening to me and that I lost everything due to the family down south and the friends whom I thought they were only to see that they had their own gain in all my losing everything.
I am not a bad person and I would take the last shirt or meal to clothe and to feed someone, I feel like Job in the Bible where he lost everything and God blessed him more than he could ever imagine. Is this what God is doing to me, is it because I am a believer that allows bad things to happen to me? I know where my heart is and I know where my faith is and I truly believe in miracles and I have seen them and the other side of good and I know that I can be a walking testament to those that are suffering and going through this that they can still be saved and believe that there is a God and he loves me.
I cry a lot because I don't understand and I ask for the mercy of God to shine down on me and open those doors of opportunity for me. To bless those who bless me in assisting me during this horrible time.
I take pride in being a medical professional, but I am embarrassed as to where I am at the moment.
God bless and thank you for reading this.
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