SinglemomV
Beloved of All
Lord, I am so overwhelmed, just now and I am so sad. I try so hard to be the best example I can be, just to be taken granted for by the older boys, Scott and Jordan. I give all I have Lord, What am I doing wrong? I am standing up for Myself and No longer allowing to be a door mat. I try so hard to teach them to be self-sufficient. Jordan is now living with his dad, but coming by now, to try to get money, wanting me to lie to his dad, going to see his friends, but telling his dad he's coming to see Austin just to be able to go somewhere. Jordan did come by 2 times in 3 weeks, Once for 5 minutes, and then tonight for 30 minutes, but wanted to go and see his friends and wanted money, and I said No, you will no longer use me. Jordan then left and told Austin he wasn't spending he night, right in his face, and told Austin could thank Mom for that. Now, Austin is mad at me..I did relay what Jordan said and did to Jordan's Dad. This is Hurting Austin, Lord, and it is literally breaking my heart. What they do to me is one thing, but to Austin, I will NOT tolerate. I have to draw the line. All Austin has is me Lord, just me and You, Lord. My Parents Love Austin, but they are older and my mom's health isn't Good, My Dad has to still work and take care of my mom. Lord, I am not perfect, I just want to Austin and myself to be treated with respect. Scott has done hurtful things to Austin, and Said awful things about me I have learned lately, and this has deeply hurt me. Jordan mentally and emotionally exhaust me, as Scott does too. Scott for the most part does when I ask, things around the house, but then he goes and does what he knows I do not approve of, (drinking, etc.)Should I not say Anything to Scott? Lord, I know they are just 18, 21 but still I don't deserve to be treated that way.Lord, Am I being Punished Lord? Lord, If I am doing something wrong, please guide me, Lord. I am deeply hurt and sad Lord, My Cup is overflowing, now into the saucer, which is about to drip. I feel as though I am on the edge, drained, like I can't breathe or think. Lord, Please Provide, I pray I get all the papers to the state to them in time for their assistance Lord. Lord, I pray if I am to move out of this house my dad owns, to get my dad out of debt, Guide us to where Austin and I Will go, Lord. Lord, Intervene, I ask for forgiveness of my sins Lord, I can't do this without You Lord, Thank You Lord, I need you to carry me for a while, Take this Lord, I have to be strong for Austin Lord, In Jesus Name Amen
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