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joanne23
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I've been going through a really tough time lately. I've been sick for almost 2 years and haven't been able to work. I'm waiting on a decision from disability, but it could be a few more months before they decide. I've lived off of savings since being sick. I was extremely fortunate to have as much as I did to hold me over. I thank God for all of my good fortune.The savings is depleated and I've been really struggling. I've managed to make most payments on time and God has been providing the last few months. I tried to call my mortgage company today for help and they said that I am not "late enough" for help. I ended up using most of the last of my money to make a payment because I was so scared of letting it get any later, even though they said that is the only way that I could "possibly" get help- and by "possibly" I mean that they said even if I do let it get later that they couldn't guarantee that they would be able to do anything for me. I also found out today that my health insurance rates have been raised and I won't be able to keep this payment up anymore even if it hadn't. I'm so scared for the future. I don't know what is going to happen to me. I am in debt so steeply from having to live so long off of credit and savings even if a miracle happened and I was better tomorrow and able to work, I don't see any way to get out of this hole. I just don't know what to do.
Also, my best friend who is extremely dear to my heart has been having some health problems. They found a very large cyst on her ovary. Then they ran a blood test to see if it could be cancer and the test came back today with bad results. It doesn't necessarily mean that she has cancer, but since the level is elevated they have to do further investigations. I am so terrified for her. I couldn't bear it if she were to have cancer. She has been my rock and I am scared to death for her. She doesn't act scared about this, but I know she is. Just writing this is bringing me to tears. She is a wonderful person and my best friend- like a sister. I pray that God make her healthy. Please don't let her have cancer.
With all of this and more going on, I just feel overwhelmed. I keep praying for things to get better and it just seems like they get worse.It seems like every week brings more bad news, more challenges, and more heartache. I know God won't give me more than I can handle, but wow- right now I feel like I'm at my breaking point. I'm living in fear every day about the future- for me and now for my friend. I just really need something good to happen. I need God to show me that everything will be ok. I need to know that things are going to work out. I need to know that my friend is going to be ok, that I'm not going to lose my house, that I will have a future that is not forever poverty stricken and sad. I just need something to hold on to- some kind of hope to keep me going. Please pray for me and my friend. Thanks.
Also, my best friend who is extremely dear to my heart has been having some health problems. They found a very large cyst on her ovary. Then they ran a blood test to see if it could be cancer and the test came back today with bad results. It doesn't necessarily mean that she has cancer, but since the level is elevated they have to do further investigations. I am so terrified for her. I couldn't bear it if she were to have cancer. She has been my rock and I am scared to death for her. She doesn't act scared about this, but I know she is. Just writing this is bringing me to tears. She is a wonderful person and my best friend- like a sister. I pray that God make her healthy. Please don't let her have cancer.
With all of this and more going on, I just feel overwhelmed. I keep praying for things to get better and it just seems like they get worse.It seems like every week brings more bad news, more challenges, and more heartache. I know God won't give me more than I can handle, but wow- right now I feel like I'm at my breaking point. I'm living in fear every day about the future- for me and now for my friend. I just really need something good to happen. I need God to show me that everything will be ok. I need to know that things are going to work out. I need to know that my friend is going to be ok, that I'm not going to lose my house, that I will have a future that is not forever poverty stricken and sad. I just need something to hold on to- some kind of hope to keep me going. Please pray for me and my friend. Thanks.