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Ok Coming to a realization over the past few days that I have an issue I have slipped into without knowing I was headed there. Some background will help in how I got here and the feelings I am dealing with. Strap in because it is gonna be a bit long. I came to Christ early and though hiccups in faith and my walk have come in the Lord has always guided me through them effectively. I have seen his work in my life and the fact I am alive is proof of his divine gifts as I died twice as a baby due to medical issues which the treatment for was experimental and i was one of if not the first child born with my medical complications and the Doctors don't know how I came back because it wasn't them that revived me. When going into church as a small child it never felt like learning something new because I already knew, I was saved at the early age of 7 and not like peer pressure saved because I was in that environment but because I already knew it to be true. Early on I knew abstinence before marriage was gonna be the way I would live. I had a few opportunities from ladies very tempting in beauty but I held firm as every offer of intimacy until my 1 Ex-GF was offers of one-night-stand type flings and I had my commitment. Didn't have a GF til 31 because every interested lady until then only wanted casual flings and I had been content in this. My relationship with her (she was also committed to abstinence and looking for a Christ-centered relationship at the time) was when I learned the difference between happy and content as I had been mistaking contentment for happiness to this point. I did fall for her absolutely and hard and at first it was going really well until her Dad tried to convince me to convince her to listen to him and obey him. Keep in mind she is an adult and the things he wanted her to obey him on were on-sensical things like he wanted her to be blond so he would try to make her go blond and her natural hair color is black/dark brown. He would try to tell her that it was what God wanted her to do because insert nonsensical excuse about how black was the color of evil so her black hair was evil. Another example was he wouldn't let her go to the doctor when she had a bad cough for a month because it was too expensive and he didn't have the money (until I offered to take her and pay for it). after I refused to use my influence to tell her to do these things and obey him he started constantly telling her all the things that proved I wasn't a real believer. This continued for a few months and over those few months he made it harder and harder for her to see me until on Valentines day he demanded we cut our date short because her sister was in the hospital. This takes some explaining also as her sister being in the hospital was a monthly occurrence because of chronic medical problems that were non-emergency in nature. we went and he offered to get us all Subway and on the way down he said "ya know, cops should be allowed to punish you when they arrest you instead of having a trial so criminals can get away with everything" with him knowing I and my Dad had lost our house to crooked police. I should have recognized the bait but I am someone that loves to debate so I took it hook line and sinker. The next day I felt the lord was telling me something was wrong with her so I tried to call her but she didn't answer. the next day which was also Sunday as had become normal we took them to Church as they had no car and the whole time she was really cold at me and wouldn't talk to me. After we took them home she said she wanted to talk to me and that's when she told me God told her she couldn't be with me because and started telling me all the things her Dad had been accusing me of over the last 3 months. The reason I want all this detail in is not to put judgement on her Dad or her but to help with understanding where my feelings were at at this point and where they are now. I put my trust in God I let myself feel what I was feeling and I didn't try to bury the feelings but the last time I heard anything from the Lord like I had before was the day before she broke up with me and I have continued to press towards him believing that the silence is no indication of him not being with me but an indication that he has a plan and I just can't see it yet. As time went on I have had 0 reciprocation of interest from women and the pain of the breakup has only gotten deeper and I have gotten lonelier. at some point I am not entirely sure when it got to the point where I have consistently felt like dying and it is only faith in knowing it would not end the pain and that God would bring me through it that gave me the strength not to follow through on it. More recently I have come to the realization that some time over the last year I crossed another threshold. I didn't even realize I was headed there or I would have sought prayer and help sooner but I have arrived at a point that I am not ready for death if it comes. The issue is not that I don't believe in Christ or his sacrifice but rather that I know that if I die today I won't want to go into eternity. Let me be clear I don't want the other option a lot more but I want to find the wife and have the children I feel I am supposed to have and this is a very dangerous place to be. I want to want better but I can't shake the want of that and I have tried. The ironic part of this is I want these things in alignment with God and through Christ but even if God wants me to have the things I want I cannot receive them in my current emotional state I find myself in. Let me be clear about something else also. I honestly am in the place where I feel if it is God's will that I remain single and childless for the rest of my life I still say let his will be done and may it bring glory to his name, I just don't want to move on and would not be able to move on if I were to die now. So even if I get no eternity in paradise and end up damned I woudl rather it be so than to be against his will. I just don't feel as of right now I would find victory personally there. I don't want to be here in this way, especially since in this way even if my wants and god's desires align again I know I am not in a place where I an ready to recieve those blessings. I ask for Prayer to help me get to where I need to be and I am trying to go to scripture for help but it is thus far not working or helping. I can only assume that God has my best outcome in his design and love for me, and if scripture alone is not helping then I have to thing I should turn to the Body of Christ which is all of you for help. Maybe resources exist within that are already what I need to help and God just needs me to seek it. Maybe prayer en-masse will be what i need or maybe I am already on my way through and God has already put into motion the things I need to help. Either way more prayer can't hurt
 
Lord, we thank you that you for the blessings that you have given us. Help us to honor you in every part of our lives. We place this request at your throne. Please hear and reply according to your perfect will and timing. Grant us the peace to know that you are in control. In Jesus Name. Amen.
 
Praying with and for you in Jesus.

We can do everything Jesus did and more! We can speak; sickness leave in Jesus! Be healed by Jesus stripes! I am healed by Jesus stripes! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

You can copy and paste this to pray every day and share...

There is nothing that happens for us that is bad. All things work for our good in Jesus! Look at everything as good!

Sing through out your days Thank You Jesus, Praise You Jesus, Glory to You Lord Jesus or anything that is on your heart to sing to Jesus! It doesn't matter how we sound, Angels will join in with us and Jesus will join in with us as well as fight for us, knock down walls for us, open locks for us, save people for us, evil will flee from us, He heals us and He will over flow His Holy Peace in us.

Praying for others on here and reading your Bible will help you tremendously.

I wanted to commit suicide once, I even came up with a plan. Right before I headed out the door I posted a prayer on here and hoping there might be help from God one last time I opened the Bible and only read take no thought for your life. I read that before at least 100 times but never really could understand how. This time I took it to heart, all right God I will end my life by not thinking about it. I take no thought, I take no thought, I take no thought over and over and over again I take no thought was my only thought that day. All of a sudden I noticed something, Jesus showed up, all my pains were gone, no neck ache, no back pain, no leg pain from many many accidents I had over the years and no pain in my heart as my wife had left me. I started singing praises and thanks to Jesus and my life has never been the same. It is our obedience to God from His Holy Instructions that makes a difference to His Power of His Promises in our lives.

Be a doer of Jesus friend, it really makes a difference! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Search the Bible for Jesus' Promises friend, do them and claim them in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus.

Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend.

Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart.

Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me.

Let Us Pray: God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You. I long for a more intimate relationship with You. God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8). Show me how to draw closer to You. Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life. Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life. God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7). I confess, I will take no thought for my life. I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Mathew 6:25-34). I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily. Thank You Jesus for Your Promises! Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3). Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirt Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus. God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus, my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.

Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.
 
Ok Coming to a realization over the past few days that I have an issue I have slipped into without knowing I was headed there. Some background will help in how I got here and the feelings I am dealing with. Strap in because it is gonna be a bit long. I came to Christ early and though hiccups in faith and my walk have come in the Lord has always guided me through them effectively. I have seen his work in my life and the fact I am alive is proof of his divine gifts as I died twice as a baby due to medical issues which the treatment for was experimental and i was one of if not the first child born with my medical complications and the Doctors don't know how I came back because it wasn't them that revived me. When going into church as a small child it never felt like learning something new because I already knew, I was saved at the early age of 7 and not like peer pressure saved because I was in that environment but because I already knew it to be true. Early on I knew abstinence before marriage was gonna be the way I would live. I had a few opportunities from ladies very tempting in beauty but I held firm as every offer of intimacy until my 1 Ex-GF was offers of one-night-stand type flings and I had my commitment. Didn't have a GF til 31 because every interested lady until then only wanted casual flings and I had been content in this. My relationship with her (she was also committed to abstinence and looking for a Christ-centered relationship at the time) was when I learned the difference between happy and content as I had been mistaking contentment for happiness to this point. I did fall for her absolutely and hard and at first it was going really well until her Dad tried to convince me to convince her to listen to him and obey him. Keep in mind she is an adult and the things he wanted her to obey him on were on-sensical things like he wanted her to be blond so he would try to make her go blond and her natural hair color is black/dark brown. He would try to tell her that it was what God wanted her to do because insert nonsensical excuse about how black was the color of evil so her black hair was evil. Another example was he wouldn't let her go to the doctor when she had a bad cough for a month because it was too expensive and he didn't have the money (until I offered to take her and pay for it). after I refused to use my influence to tell her to do these things and obey him he started constantly telling her all the things that proved I wasn't a real believer. This continued for a few months and over those few months he made it harder and harder for her to see me until on Valentines day he demanded we cut our date short because her sister was in the hospital. This takes some explaining also as her sister being in the hospital was a monthly occurrence because of chronic medical problems that were non-emergency in nature. we went and he offered to get us all Subway and on the way down he said "ya know, cops should be allowed to punish you when they arrest you instead of having a trial so criminals can get away with everything" with him knowing I and my Dad had lost our house to crooked police. I should have recognized the bait but I am someone that loves to debate so I took it hook line and sinker. The next day I felt the lord was telling me something was wrong with her so I tried to call her but she didn't answer. the next day which was also Sunday as had become normal we took them to Church as they had no car and the whole time she was really cold at me and wouldn't talk to me. After we took them home she said she wanted to talk to me and that's when she told me God told her she couldn't be with me because and started telling me all the things her Dad had been accusing me of over the last 3 months. The reason I want all this detail in is not to put judgement on her Dad or her but to help with understanding where my feelings were at at this point and where they are now. I put my trust in God I let myself feel what I was feeling and I didn't try to bury the feelings but the last time I heard anything from the Lord like I had before was the day before she broke up with me and I have continued to press towards him believing that the silence is no indication of him not being with me but an indication that he has a plan and I just can't see it yet. As time went on I have had 0 reciprocation of interest from women and the pain of the breakup has only gotten deeper and I have gotten lonelier. at some point I am not entirely sure when it got to the point where I have consistently felt like dying and it is only faith in knowing it would not end the pain and that God would bring me through it that gave me the strength not to follow through on it. More recently I have come to the realization that some time over the last year I crossed another threshold. I didn't even realize I was headed there or I would have sought prayer and help sooner but I have arrived at a point that I am not ready for death if it comes. The issue is not that I don't believe in Christ or his sacrifice but rather that I know that if I die today I won't want to go into eternity. Let me be clear I don't want the other option a lot more but I want to find the wife and have the children I feel I am supposed to have and this is a very dangerous place to be. I want to want better but I can't shake the want of that and I have tried. The ironic part of this is I want these things in alignment with God and through Christ but even if God wants me to have the things I want I cannot receive them in my current emotional state I find myself in. Let me be clear about something else also. I honestly am in the place where I feel if it is God's will that I remain single and childless for the rest of my life I still say let his will be done and may it bring glory to his name, I just don't want to move on and would not be able to move on if I were to die now. So even if I get no eternity in paradise and end up damned I woudl rather it be so than to be against his will. I just don't feel as of right now I would find victory personally there. I don't want to be here in this way, especially since in this way even if my wants and god's desires align again I know I am not in a place where I an ready to recieve those blessings. I ask for Prayer to help me get to where I need to be and I am trying to go to scripture for help but it is thus far not working or helping. I can only assume that God has my best outcome in his design and love for me, and if scripture alone is not helping then I have to thing I should turn to the Body of Christ which is all of you for help. Maybe resources exist within that are already what I need to help and God just needs me to seek it. Maybe prayer en-masse will be what i need or maybe I am already on my way through and God has already put into motion the things I need to help. Either way more prayer can't hurt
Brother God seperated you from the onset. Focus on God and everything else will fall into place.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. - Matthew 6:33

Heavenly Father I pray that You would guide, protect, and heal Your child physically, mentally, and spiritually, in the mighty name of our risen Saviour Jesus I pray.
 
In the name of Jesus may God hear and honor your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. Amen.

*Please Pray This Prayer: God Thank You. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me Jesus. I Am Loved. God I ask You in Jesus' name bless me with the desires of my heart that is the will of God for my life and the lives of those I pray for. God heal me totally in all areas of my life. Make me whole in You. Bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the grace and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God let Your Word dwell within me richly. So that I may come to know You better, love You more, and make You known. God help me to always keep my focus on You, trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You first in all my ways, and allow You to direct the footsteps I take, the words that I speak, write, text, and sing. God help me, show me how, and bless me to have an ever-growing closer, stronger, more intimate relationship with You.

God bless me with a God solution-focused heart, mind, attitude, and spirit, and let me always think, act, and react with a God solution-focused heart, mind, attitude, and spirit. God help me and bless me to walk in the faith, trust, hope, love, peace, joy, security, and wisdom of Your Word and presence in my life. God place Your angels all around me to cover and protect me from all sickness, evil, hurt, harm, danger, accidents, the plans of my enemies, and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God deal with all my enemies according to Your Word. God all that I have asked of You in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of this prayer, all those I love, care about, and all those who love and care about me. And God please bless each of us with the desire, love, strength, and spirit of obedience to always obey Your Word and Will for each of our lives. God bless each of us to always walk in the integrity, love, and character of Christ Jesus. God please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Thank You Jesus.
Prayer was written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach

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