We hear a cry of deep pain and frustration in your words, and our hearts ache with you. It sounds like you have felt let down, perhaps even betrayed, by those who claim to follow Jesus—or maybe by Jesus Himself. You are not alone in feeling this way. Many have walked through seasons of disillusionment, especially when the people of God fail to live up to His love or when life’s hardships make faith feel hollow. But before you turn away completely, we must gently but firmly remind you: it is not Jesus who has failed you. If anything, it is the brokenness of this world—and sometimes the brokenness of His followers—that has left you wounded.
You say you don’t need the Bible, church, or prayer, and that you will be on your own now. But the truth is, no one is ever truly "on their own." We are all created by God, whether we acknowledge Him or not. The Bible is not just a book to be discarded—it is the living Word of God, sharper than any two-edged sword (Hebrews 4:12), able to discern the thoughts and intentions of the heart. It is not a crutch for the weak; it is the foundation of truth in a world full of lies. To cast it aside is to reject the very One who offers healing, purpose, and eternal life.
You mention that Jesus has "proven" something to you, but we must ask: *What* has He proven? If you feel He has not come through for you, we urge you to consider this—Jesus never promised an easy life. In fact, He promised the opposite: *"In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world"* (John 16:33). The proof of Jesus is not in a life free from pain, but in His resurrection, His victory over sin and death, and His offer of forgiveness and new life to all who come to Him. The problem is not that Jesus has failed; the problem is that we often expect Him to conform to our desires rather than surrendering to His will.
You say you don’t need "spiritual level" or anything beyond yourself. But the Bible warns us: *"There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death"* (Proverbs 14:12). Self-reliance is a deception. We were not made to live for ourselves alone. We were made for relationship—first with God, then with others. To cut yourself off from Him is to cut yourself off from the very source of life, love, and meaning. Jesus said, *"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing"* (John 15:5). Nothing. Not joy, not peace, not true fulfillment—nothing apart from Him.
And what of prayer? You say you will not pray, but prayer is not a ritual or a duty—it is communication with the Creator of the universe. To refuse to pray is to refuse to speak to the One who knows you better than you know yourself. The Psalms are full of cries from those who felt abandoned by God, yet they still turned to Him. *"Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God"* (Psalm 42:5). Even in anger, even in doubt, God invites us to come to Him. He can handle our questions, our rage, our despair. But He will not force Himself on us.
You also mention not needing to go to church. We understand—churches are full of imperfect people, and sometimes they hurt one another. But the church is not a building or an institution; it is the body of Christ (1 Corinthians 12:27). To reject the church is to reject the family God has given you. Yes, people will fail you, but Jesus never will. And it is in the community of believers that we are sharpened, encouraged, and held accountable. *"Let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another"* (Hebrews 10:24-25). Isolation is not strength; it is a slow death to the soul.
Most of all, we must address the heart of your struggle: you feel you only need yourself. But the Bible tells us that our hearts are deceitful above all things (Jeremiah 17:9). We cannot trust our own feelings or reasoning apart from God’s truth. Jesus said, *"If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me"* (Luke 9:23). Following Jesus requires surrender—not because He is a tyrant, but because He alone knows the way to true life.
So we come before the Lord on your behalf, not with empty platitudes, but with raw, honest prayer:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this dear one to You, who is hurting, angry, and ready to walk away. Lord, You see the pain in their heart, the questions they are afraid to ask, the wounds they carry. We ask that You would meet them in this moment, not with condemnation, but with Your relentless love. Break through the walls they have built, Father. Soften their heart to Your truth. Remind them that You are near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Help them to see that You have not abandoned them—even when it feels that way.
Lord, we confess that Your people have often failed to represent You well. We repent for the times we have been hypocritical, judgmental, or unloving. But we also declare that You are greater than our failures. You are the Good Shepherd who leaves the ninety-nine to find the one (Luke 15:4). Pursue them, Jesus. Do not let them go.
We ask that You would reveal Yourself to them in a way they cannot deny. Speak to them in dreams, in nature, in the quiet moments when they least expect it. Remind them of Your promises: *"I will never leave you nor forsake you"* (Hebrews 13:5). *"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28).
Father, we also pray against the lies of the enemy—that they are better off alone, that You are not trustworthy, that they don’t need You. Silence those lies with Your truth. Help them to see that true freedom is not found in independence, but in surrender to You.
And if they do not yet know You as Savior, we ask that You would open their eyes to their need for You. For *"there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved"* (Acts 4:12). Draw them to the cross, Lord. Let them see the depth of Your love poured out for them.
We trust You with their life, their heart, their future. May they come to know that You are not just a concept or a distant God, but a loving Father who longs to hold them close. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Friend, we do not say these things to shame you or to preach at you. We say them because we care deeply, and because we have walked through our own seasons of doubt and despair. But we have found this to be true: Jesus is worth it. He is worth the risk of faith. He is worth the surrender. He is worth the fight.
If you are willing, we encourage you to do one thing: talk to God. Not with fancy words, not with religious jargon—just talk to Him. Tell Him exactly how you feel. Say, *"God, if You’re real, show me. I’m angry. I’m hurt. I don’t understand. But I’m willing to listen."* And then wait. Watch. See what He does.
You are not alone. Even if you feel like you are, you are not. We are praying for you. And more importantly, God is pursuing you. Don’t give up.
