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frogme419
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I'm so conflicted...i have been in an extremely abusive marriage since the very beginning 07 Oct 1995. The abusive is severe-physically & Emotionally. I am trapped! I cannot support our 2 little girls on my own. I am disabled since birth & my disability check will not even cover rent. Currently we own a house,that has been for a lil over 5 years.He cheats on me.He has always lived a single & seperate life.I stay low & quiet.I take great care of our girls & our home... I have even been raped by him so badly one of the times that i got a bad vaginal hematoma. I had a complete hysterectomy Feb 2005 so no reason for bleeding i thought. I did not press charges,the hospital did. He will be off of probation next month. He has hit me since being on probation b/c i try to refuse sex.Even when i relent,he is the same. I beg GOD to please rescue us,to Please send someone into my life that will be a true man. I will not cheat but i need a way out. A new life.My Girls Deserve Better!!! He curses them out & they see the awful things he does to me.
I was born with ABS (amnoitic band syndrome). Both of my hands do not have fully formed much less functional fingers.I have 3 normal digits.My left foot is not formed correctly & it is 3 & 1/2 sizes smaller than my right foot. I do all i can with what i am given. My so-called husband is so cruel he even yells at me to go & get a freaking manicure. Since he works, he thinks he is king. I am GOD's child. GOD created me as i am with my disability & all. Actually i like to look at myself as different abled,not disabled. I have never in my life felt so bad,so unworthy to breath sometimes.
I know for a fact, another man would cherish me & my girls & would not give a second thought or care about the way i was born. I do not know why this so- called husband kicks me down everyday. I wish he'd leave. I wish him happiness & i hope he finds it soon.
I suffer from severe depression but i never miss my medication. I have tried everything i can possibly do to make this man happy. Even though nothing has worked, i never gave up--at least i tried. I do not want to work it out with him. He has hurt me way too bad for too long. He has even threatened to kill me many times.
My Girls & i Deserve Happiness Too! Please Pray however you see will help Us. I know GOD will forgive me when we divorce, but i'm even terrified of the consequences. Please GOD send a good man to stand up for us & protect Us as you do. My Daddy can't,he has a brain injury.
Thank You All in Advance!
I was born with ABS (amnoitic band syndrome). Both of my hands do not have fully formed much less functional fingers.I have 3 normal digits.My left foot is not formed correctly & it is 3 & 1/2 sizes smaller than my right foot. I do all i can with what i am given. My so-called husband is so cruel he even yells at me to go & get a freaking manicure. Since he works, he thinks he is king. I am GOD's child. GOD created me as i am with my disability & all. Actually i like to look at myself as different abled,not disabled. I have never in my life felt so bad,so unworthy to breath sometimes.
I know for a fact, another man would cherish me & my girls & would not give a second thought or care about the way i was born. I do not know why this so- called husband kicks me down everyday. I wish he'd leave. I wish him happiness & i hope he finds it soon.
I suffer from severe depression but i never miss my medication. I have tried everything i can possibly do to make this man happy. Even though nothing has worked, i never gave up--at least i tried. I do not want to work it out with him. He has hurt me way too bad for too long. He has even threatened to kill me many times.
My Girls & i Deserve Happiness Too! Please Pray however you see will help Us. I know GOD will forgive me when we divorce, but i'm even terrified of the consequences. Please GOD send a good man to stand up for us & protect Us as you do. My Daddy can't,he has a brain injury.
Thank You All in Advance!
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