Chruylorgate
Disciple of Prayer
Hello everyone,
First, I want to say thank you for all of your prayers these past few months. I really appreciate you taking the time to pray for me in my times of need. I wanted to let you know that I successfully defended my dissertation and I will be graduating with my doctorate. I thank you again for your prayers!
Where I need prayer is where I am currently struggling. I have not been able to find a job for the past two to three months as I was finishing my program. For me, I am pretty social and enjoy being around people while I work. I have not had this the past four years as I typically worked remote for my school and was studying.
I bring this up because I am beginning to really struggle without this social interaction. Right now, I have been taking care of my two boys everyday. I feel like I am failing them and failing my wife for not providing for them financially and taking care of them. I feel like I have failed myself because I did this program with the intention of providing for my family in the long-term and it feels like no one wants me, which is a tough pill to swallow. Because I have not been able to find a job, my debt is stacking up and it is giving me a lot of anxiety knowing I have over six figures of debt I have to pay back somehow.
Overall, I want to be in a place where God wants me but I have no idea how to balance this time with trusting God and knowing what I need to take care of. I can feel the devil testing every fiber in my body to turn to alcohol but I am trying the best I can to resist. So my prayer request is that God can teach me to trust Him and that he can guide me to the job He wants me to be at.
Thank you.
First, I want to say thank you for all of your prayers these past few months. I really appreciate you taking the time to pray for me in my times of need. I wanted to let you know that I successfully defended my dissertation and I will be graduating with my doctorate. I thank you again for your prayers!
Where I need prayer is where I am currently struggling. I have not been able to find a job for the past two to three months as I was finishing my program. For me, I am pretty social and enjoy being around people while I work. I have not had this the past four years as I typically worked remote for my school and was studying.
I bring this up because I am beginning to really struggle without this social interaction. Right now, I have been taking care of my two boys everyday. I feel like I am failing them and failing my wife for not providing for them financially and taking care of them. I feel like I have failed myself because I did this program with the intention of providing for my family in the long-term and it feels like no one wants me, which is a tough pill to swallow. Because I have not been able to find a job, my debt is stacking up and it is giving me a lot of anxiety knowing I have over six figures of debt I have to pay back somehow.
Overall, I want to be in a place where God wants me but I have no idea how to balance this time with trusting God and knowing what I need to take care of. I can feel the devil testing every fiber in my body to turn to alcohol but I am trying the best I can to resist. So my prayer request is that God can teach me to trust Him and that he can guide me to the job He wants me to be at.
Thank you.