Pleazlake
Disciple of Prayer
I have prayed and prayed. I will always pray and give thanks to God for all that he has done, is doing and promises to do. Things are getting worse! I don't see a way for us to leave this extended stay. I am hurting so badly. I don't want to give up! I won't give up! My son is being just plain disrespectful toward his sister and I. He has just now, again, cursed and intimidated both of us! He even yells and intimidates our dog. He says one thing and we have a plan (he gets these jobs like Uber and door dash and so forth. He even got hired at Amazon --- making a decent amount. He quit that job before he could even bring in checks. He worked as security...he quit that job shortly after beginning. He is extremely intelligent; yet he won't do what he needs to do)-- only to quit another job and abuse us for not making everything work on my Social Security alone. I am disabled and am currently attending my last evaluation --- in hopes and prayers that I will be able to cbe approved for disability. If I am approved, at least I will be able to maybe afford and apartment for my daughter and I. He keep saying that if we don't figure it out, he's out. I reminded him that the whole plan was for him to bring his income and combine it with mine so that we can rent an apartment or home. I reminded him that he keeps quitting jobs and not keeping his promises. But, he is never wrong and anyone who tries to tell him different --- and our voices are always calm --- leads to him blowing up and hurling threats and abusive words at us. I love my son and I thank God for allowing me have him. But, I definitely did not raise him to be like this. My youngest daughter's nerves are so bad. She is my caregiver. I need her. She does so many things for me. My other daughter is busy living her life and doesn't care whether we are alive or dead. My son just told me he doesn't care if I go and live in a slum. I can't even believe the horrible things he screams and yells at me (us). I know that God did not give me a spirit of fear. God gave me a spirit of Power! But, I would be untruthful if I said that I wasn't terrified. I am so tired. Tired of begging to be treated as a Mom should be. I am going to try my best to find some way to get some kind of assistance for a down payment on an apartment today. I can't keep living like this. I need intercessory prayer so badly! I need God right now! Everything I ask is in Jesus name! Please, please pray for us! God bless you all. 





Update to the battery I need for our car the other day: GOD PROVIDED! A friend sent me the money to buy one! Praise God! I don't even know how I am going to pay her back! But, GOD!






Update to the battery I need for our car the other day: GOD PROVIDED! A friend sent me the money to buy one! Praise God! I don't even know how I am going to pay her back! But, GOD!

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.