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I want the presence of Holy Ghost. I need it… I can feel all evil and bad with in me asking to act, it is so suffocating... I am too tired… ever since I was a kid I was lonely and ignored though I learnt to live with it, now it is very hard... I speak to myself all the time, even while I am deep asleep, loud but unclear... what will happen if I kept on ignoring emotions and needs and store every thing with in? I have a weak heart and a not so good brain I am too bitter to be loved and I am a lazy coward… It felt better when I prayed but I cannot concentrate any more... I see my past when I close my eyes it is embarrassing and painful… I may soon kill myself or I may kill so many others... I do not like either of it happen. All I want is wisdom to understand and peace to live.
I am angry with my family for their unfair and ruthless attitude… I was never, what I wanted to be... I am twenty four, still scared to fall in love... I fear every thing... every now and then the sub conscious device cunning plans for mass destruction, I fear my self, I fear if I know too much about too many things, I fear I may execute such a plan that’s too convincing and lucrative... I want to be just and caring… I want to reach god… I need help...
I am angry with my family for their unfair and ruthless attitude… I was never, what I wanted to be... I am twenty four, still scared to fall in love... I fear every thing... every now and then the sub conscious device cunning plans for mass destruction, I fear my self, I fear if I know too much about too many things, I fear I may execute such a plan that’s too convincing and lucrative... I want to be just and caring… I want to reach god… I need help...