joyfulnoise02
Disciple of Prayer
I am just hanging in right now. I work 40 hours a week and live off $10 worth of groceries a week. I have worked for the same employer for 13 years. My last paycheck increase was back in 2009. I went to work today with $2 in my pocket but I made to work and back again home. (This has been the case for the last five months.) I drive a 16 year old car that has a severe oil leak, paint on the roof is almost gone, and transmission problems. I came home to find another hospital bill for $1,460.33 waiting for me in the mail box, which adds to my current bills totally $30,000.00. I have been scrapping by for the last 6 years only paying minimums on everything. I have no family support as my family is all deceased. I am not sure if I am going to be able to continue to live in my apartment much longer. I have been looking for a part-time job as I am willing to work, but everywhere I go they see my cane and say "sorry but if you did have to use the cane we would hire you". I have arthritis in both knees since 2008 and I have been managing to survive on my own since that time.
I came back to work in wheel chair and progressed to the point where I walk with the use of cane. I lost custody of my only son to my ex-husband back in 2009, because he said, I couldn't take care of him in my condition. He then band me from coming to his house to see my son. My son is now 16 years old and he never calls me and if I am lucky I get to see him three times a year. I go to work Monday through Friday where I speak to no one and work in silence only listening to spiritual Cd's on my personal cd player with earphones. I have been getting the Cd's from the public library. This is the only thing that makes my day go by fast. The human resource person has been trying to get me fired since 2008. I complete every assignment they give me and take verbal abuse from everyone. If I verbally stand up for myself I am label "a cancer that needs to eradicated from the company" any employees that befriend me are somehow accused of something and dismissed or demoted, so everyone is afraid to say anything on my behalf and I have asked them not to get involved as they have families to care for. I asked the owner of the company for a raise in 2013 and was told after four months of asking, that my request was denied we are paying you more than the current median for your position as a file clerk. Earlier this year I received a promotion to accounts receivable as a trial bases no raise. I have been doing the work now for six months,and another employee just told me they are looking for a replacement for my job. I don't have any savings,and without this job I will be homeless.
In September I had surgery to remove a Uterine Polyp. I under went two different test 3 months apart checking for Cancer. Thank God all the test came back negative for Cancer. I couldn't even go back to the doctor's office for the test results because I could not pay the $50 office visit charge. I called the office and begged a nurse to just give me the results as the waiting was causing me to loose sleep, and my hair. I am a nice person and I have been none to give my last dollar to another employee so they could eat lunch. No one on my job knows my circumstances. This my be my last Christmas in my apartment. I have an artificial tree that I put up two weeks ago as it helps me remember that Jesus Christ gave his life for me and we celebrate his birth at this time of year. I have been donating plasma for the last six years as it help leukemia patients and someone donated blood for me when I had emergency surgery in 2008. The doctor told me then if I had not been admitted to the hospital when I was I would have died. I was in so much pain then.
I am a survivor and I know God does not give us more than we can handle. I have been told that he test us to make us stronger.I know God has been looking after me like he does with the little sparrow, but how do I continue to keep my head up when ever I turn something else comes at me to knock me back down again. I have no family, no husband, no child. Where do I go for help? I have been cutting the power to my apartment every night and only using it for two to three hours a day just so I can pay the bill. Thank God no real cold weather has come yet. I have an ex-employee who gave me a cooked turkey and the gallon freeze bags with cooked rice. I am now eating this for lunch everyday and nothing for dinner to make it stretch. Thank God for Dollar Tree stores as I have been managing to keep my clothing, and apartment clean, and feed myself from this store. A neighbor recently told me about a co-op where I can go to get fresh vegetables for $3. I try not to drive the car to far as I don't have money for any further repairs or extra gas . I just have enough money to put gas in the car from week to week. The owner of the company where I work told me can't you put some spray paint on the car or something before it rust through. This is suppose to be the land of milk an honey, where every person can work.
You name it I need it! I remember sixteen years ago going out and getting gifts for Angel Tree kids. I can't even afford to buy a gift for my own son now. I took care of my mother until the day she died in my arms in 2006. My father died five months before I got sick and I was forced out of my parent home back in 2009. I have lived a low key life. I never had anything extravagant. I never owned anything gold in my life. I was always taught their is always someone else worse off than you, so if you can help them help. I did just that all my life, but where do I turn for help. I believe my help comes from the Lord, but I am having a hard time keeping my spirits up now. Please pray for me to make it over yet another obstacle. Somehow I have to pay these bills. I joked today with a friend who gave me food for Thanksgiving. I am worth more dead than I am alive. I thank God for him,because he gave me the turkey. I wake up everyday and Thank God that I see a new day. Thank you for your time and I hope my life as sad as it is did not bring your spirits down this time of year. Thank YOU!!!!!!!!!!
I came back to work in wheel chair and progressed to the point where I walk with the use of cane. I lost custody of my only son to my ex-husband back in 2009, because he said, I couldn't take care of him in my condition. He then band me from coming to his house to see my son. My son is now 16 years old and he never calls me and if I am lucky I get to see him three times a year. I go to work Monday through Friday where I speak to no one and work in silence only listening to spiritual Cd's on my personal cd player with earphones. I have been getting the Cd's from the public library. This is the only thing that makes my day go by fast. The human resource person has been trying to get me fired since 2008. I complete every assignment they give me and take verbal abuse from everyone. If I verbally stand up for myself I am label "a cancer that needs to eradicated from the company" any employees that befriend me are somehow accused of something and dismissed or demoted, so everyone is afraid to say anything on my behalf and I have asked them not to get involved as they have families to care for. I asked the owner of the company for a raise in 2013 and was told after four months of asking, that my request was denied we are paying you more than the current median for your position as a file clerk. Earlier this year I received a promotion to accounts receivable as a trial bases no raise. I have been doing the work now for six months,and another employee just told me they are looking for a replacement for my job. I don't have any savings,and without this job I will be homeless.
In September I had surgery to remove a Uterine Polyp. I under went two different test 3 months apart checking for Cancer. Thank God all the test came back negative for Cancer. I couldn't even go back to the doctor's office for the test results because I could not pay the $50 office visit charge. I called the office and begged a nurse to just give me the results as the waiting was causing me to loose sleep, and my hair. I am a nice person and I have been none to give my last dollar to another employee so they could eat lunch. No one on my job knows my circumstances. This my be my last Christmas in my apartment. I have an artificial tree that I put up two weeks ago as it helps me remember that Jesus Christ gave his life for me and we celebrate his birth at this time of year. I have been donating plasma for the last six years as it help leukemia patients and someone donated blood for me when I had emergency surgery in 2008. The doctor told me then if I had not been admitted to the hospital when I was I would have died. I was in so much pain then.
I am a survivor and I know God does not give us more than we can handle. I have been told that he test us to make us stronger.I know God has been looking after me like he does with the little sparrow, but how do I continue to keep my head up when ever I turn something else comes at me to knock me back down again. I have no family, no husband, no child. Where do I go for help? I have been cutting the power to my apartment every night and only using it for two to three hours a day just so I can pay the bill. Thank God no real cold weather has come yet. I have an ex-employee who gave me a cooked turkey and the gallon freeze bags with cooked rice. I am now eating this for lunch everyday and nothing for dinner to make it stretch. Thank God for Dollar Tree stores as I have been managing to keep my clothing, and apartment clean, and feed myself from this store. A neighbor recently told me about a co-op where I can go to get fresh vegetables for $3. I try not to drive the car to far as I don't have money for any further repairs or extra gas . I just have enough money to put gas in the car from week to week. The owner of the company where I work told me can't you put some spray paint on the car or something before it rust through. This is suppose to be the land of milk an honey, where every person can work.
You name it I need it! I remember sixteen years ago going out and getting gifts for Angel Tree kids. I can't even afford to buy a gift for my own son now. I took care of my mother until the day she died in my arms in 2006. My father died five months before I got sick and I was forced out of my parent home back in 2009. I have lived a low key life. I never had anything extravagant. I never owned anything gold in my life. I was always taught their is always someone else worse off than you, so if you can help them help. I did just that all my life, but where do I turn for help. I believe my help comes from the Lord, but I am having a hard time keeping my spirits up now. Please pray for me to make it over yet another obstacle. Somehow I have to pay these bills. I joked today with a friend who gave me food for Thanksgiving. I am worth more dead than I am alive. I thank God for him,because he gave me the turkey. I wake up everyday and Thank God that I see a new day. Thank you for your time and I hope my life as sad as it is did not bring your spirits down this time of year. Thank YOU!!!!!!!!!!
