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I do not hate my parents. I have forgiven them of the things that they have done to me. However, I just wish for them to understand that I now wish to live my life.
All my life was spent helping with siblings. This has really retarded my life emotionally, spiritually, and so on. Because of this I have grown up naive and unable to make the right decisions. I have made very poor choices in my life (because all my thoughts were taken up with child rearing until now) from which I now suffer great consequences.
I am in my 40ties and I am still held responsible for siblings that have grown up. I want to live my live now, not just for myself, but to be able to reach out to others and to be able to work for God. I do not want to make any more poor choices. I want to grow up and mature in the Lord. He has started a good work in me and I just want it to continue until I am a mighty soldier for Him.
What I truly desire is that the game of manipulation be removed from me by my parents. "If you do not do this, then I will not extend the love you stand in need of." I just want them and my siblings to have an understanding that I just wish to live my life and not have them walking around as some load.
It is not that I am abandoning them, it is just that I will not be held responsible for their ways of life and their actions and choices. It is just that I need some space in my thought to be healed and to be renew by the Holy Spirit. I need a life. May "God help guide my thoughts.
All my life was spent helping with siblings. This has really retarded my life emotionally, spiritually, and so on. Because of this I have grown up naive and unable to make the right decisions. I have made very poor choices in my life (because all my thoughts were taken up with child rearing until now) from which I now suffer great consequences.
I am in my 40ties and I am still held responsible for siblings that have grown up. I want to live my live now, not just for myself, but to be able to reach out to others and to be able to work for God. I do not want to make any more poor choices. I want to grow up and mature in the Lord. He has started a good work in me and I just want it to continue until I am a mighty soldier for Him.
What I truly desire is that the game of manipulation be removed from me by my parents. "If you do not do this, then I will not extend the love you stand in need of." I just want them and my siblings to have an understanding that I just wish to live my life and not have them walking around as some load.
It is not that I am abandoning them, it is just that I will not be held responsible for their ways of life and their actions and choices. It is just that I need some space in my thought to be healed and to be renew by the Holy Spirit. I need a life. May "God help guide my thoughts.
