JohnB
Prayer Warrior
My Son: ### ### ### has attempted suicide one more time. I'm trying to figure how a brilliant chemistry/calculus major can fail at suicide using chemicals the first 3 times and a noose the last time.
It has been tearing me apart, but all of a sudden there's a peace about it. I'm kinda numb as I just watch and pray and attempt to communicate with him.
He has an astronomical IQ and is an Atheist for the most part, I think. He wants nothing of my Christian views or beliefs, so I stopped giving him them like 2 or 3 years ago.
Don't get me wrong, a lot of what's negative in my son is related to me as an alcoholic, depressed father his whole life. I never physically abused him once nor have I abused him orally or emotionally intently.
I'm so sad that I'm rather despondent. I guess if a famous preacher's son can commit suicide so can a 62 year old software engineer's son.
I would rather he wouldn't though. He has aspergers real bad. A social disorder. I'm very anti-social, but his genes got the worst of it.
My only desire in this life, at this point, is to see my son, ### happy and at peace. He's never been. He's ###.
Thank you all for your love and prayers. Amen in the great Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth and Bethlehem.
It has been tearing me apart, but all of a sudden there's a peace about it. I'm kinda numb as I just watch and pray and attempt to communicate with him.
He has an astronomical IQ and is an Atheist for the most part, I think. He wants nothing of my Christian views or beliefs, so I stopped giving him them like 2 or 3 years ago.
Don't get me wrong, a lot of what's negative in my son is related to me as an alcoholic, depressed father his whole life. I never physically abused him once nor have I abused him orally or emotionally intently.
I'm so sad that I'm rather despondent. I guess if a famous preacher's son can commit suicide so can a 62 year old software engineer's son.
I would rather he wouldn't though. He has aspergers real bad. A social disorder. I'm very anti-social, but his genes got the worst of it.
My only desire in this life, at this point, is to see my son, ### happy and at peace. He's never been. He's ###.
Thank you all for your love and prayers. Amen in the great Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth and Bethlehem.
