Anonymous
Beloved of All
Dearest Lord,
I am praying to you today because I know it in my spirit that I want another child. When I went to church today, I saw a teenaged boy who was also in the autism spectrum. He was so uneasy inside the church. He reminded me a lot of my son, ###.
When I saw the kid, I thought to myself, my son really needs a sibling to take care of him when I am gone. He needs to have a brother or a sister to look after him. My son is in the autism spectrum as well. Lord, I feel sorry for ### because I am already in my 30’s with no husband, no boyfriend, and yet I am praying to have another baby.
I actually don’t know if I am pregnant but I don’t think I am. I know I had unprotected intercourse with ### many times. We are going to see the doctor soon, and I kind of feel bad knowing that I may not be pregnant. I know that if I do decide to have a child, it should be in spiritual alignment with my Kingdom Spouse. I should be with someone who is ready, who loves me and who wants to actually start a family with me.
Unlike with ###, he reminds me a lot of ###’s father, ###. And yes, I am scared to go through that again. I already know how painful it felt to be left alone in that pregnancy. And even though ### promised me he will stay, I know it is not fair to him because he also wants to be with someone he actually loves. We are just friends and all of this just feels like a dejavu of my past.
I know deep down inside of me, I want this to end up beautifully. I know I want another child. I know I need it because I am not getting any younger and my son definitely needs a sibling to be with especially when I am already old. I know that and I want to try to conceive a baby again.
I know I keep telling myself that I will just be alone and maybe someday my Kingdom Spouse will come and that’s when all of my dreams come true. But I also know that I want this story to end up in alignment to your most holy will.
Lord Jesus Christ, I know you know that I want to get pregnant but if it’s not yet time then let your will be done. I pray that I learn from this lesson and that if ever I am pregnant which I still do not have an idea, I pray that ### will not end up being like ###.
But Lord, I want you to write this story for me. I don’t want to force anything. I know the truth that ### doesn’t love me. I know it will just be hard for him. And I don’t wanna be unfair. But I sincerely appreciate you giving him to me as a friend.
I don’t know where this path will lead us, but I am praying that this is all in alignment to your will. Let your will be done. I lift this story up to you. I lift this chapter of my life to you, Lord. Please write me a beautiful story. You know what my heart yearns for. You know I have feelings for ### and you know I really want another baby.
But whatever happens, I am trusting you and your timing. If it’s meant to be, please let it work out better for me this time around, if not, I am praying that I can move on and learn from this experience.
I am going to see my doctor soon, and I admit I am very scared. I don’t know what will happen. Please be with me, please guide me. Please send forth your most Holy Spirit to be with me every step of the way.
Jesus, I surrender everything to you, please take the wheel and take care of me and my family always.
Amen.
I am praying to you today because I know it in my spirit that I want another child. When I went to church today, I saw a teenaged boy who was also in the autism spectrum. He was so uneasy inside the church. He reminded me a lot of my son, ###.
When I saw the kid, I thought to myself, my son really needs a sibling to take care of him when I am gone. He needs to have a brother or a sister to look after him. My son is in the autism spectrum as well. Lord, I feel sorry for ### because I am already in my 30’s with no husband, no boyfriend, and yet I am praying to have another baby.
I actually don’t know if I am pregnant but I don’t think I am. I know I had unprotected intercourse with ### many times. We are going to see the doctor soon, and I kind of feel bad knowing that I may not be pregnant. I know that if I do decide to have a child, it should be in spiritual alignment with my Kingdom Spouse. I should be with someone who is ready, who loves me and who wants to actually start a family with me.
Unlike with ###, he reminds me a lot of ###’s father, ###. And yes, I am scared to go through that again. I already know how painful it felt to be left alone in that pregnancy. And even though ### promised me he will stay, I know it is not fair to him because he also wants to be with someone he actually loves. We are just friends and all of this just feels like a dejavu of my past.
I know deep down inside of me, I want this to end up beautifully. I know I want another child. I know I need it because I am not getting any younger and my son definitely needs a sibling to be with especially when I am already old. I know that and I want to try to conceive a baby again.
I know I keep telling myself that I will just be alone and maybe someday my Kingdom Spouse will come and that’s when all of my dreams come true. But I also know that I want this story to end up in alignment to your most holy will.
Lord Jesus Christ, I know you know that I want to get pregnant but if it’s not yet time then let your will be done. I pray that I learn from this lesson and that if ever I am pregnant which I still do not have an idea, I pray that ### will not end up being like ###.
But Lord, I want you to write this story for me. I don’t want to force anything. I know the truth that ### doesn’t love me. I know it will just be hard for him. And I don’t wanna be unfair. But I sincerely appreciate you giving him to me as a friend.
I don’t know where this path will lead us, but I am praying that this is all in alignment to your will. Let your will be done. I lift this story up to you. I lift this chapter of my life to you, Lord. Please write me a beautiful story. You know what my heart yearns for. You know I have feelings for ### and you know I really want another baby.
But whatever happens, I am trusting you and your timing. If it’s meant to be, please let it work out better for me this time around, if not, I am praying that I can move on and learn from this experience.
I am going to see my doctor soon, and I admit I am very scared. I don’t know what will happen. Please be with me, please guide me. Please send forth your most Holy Spirit to be with me every step of the way.
Jesus, I surrender everything to you, please take the wheel and take care of me and my family always.
Amen.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.