cesar00
Banned
Dear Jesus it has been a tough week, and specialy a tough morning. I believed You would grant my request I made last night and I would be able to solve my problems, You didnt, and I am again lost and have nowhere to go. The bills keep piling up, tomorrow is the deadline to pay for my car, I have schools to pay, services to pay, Dear Jesus nothing has been paid. I thank you Lord because I still have a car, and because my services have not been suspended but I do not understand what it is You want. I believe You could make this happen forever, that I do not have to pay for any bills for the rest of my life, sure, it is in Your power to do something like this. But why Dear Jesus why ?? Fernando is sick, Isabella and Vicky have to go to the doctor, I have two broken teeth, the car's front tires are but worn out thrugh and through, it is loosing break fluid and throwing up smoke, it needs to get fixed now, my three older kids have not been going to school because I cant afford it, their life is wasting away at home because they cant find jobs to pay for it themselves either. I have sent many, many job requests and have no replies, we dont have food in the refrigerator any more, we have survived this week with my wife's imagination and incentive but there is no more, there is nthing more she can invent or mix, there is nothing more, it is empty, the pantry is empty, there is nothing, tonight we will have no supper. This morning I noticed my last pair of civilized shoes have a hole in them, my last pair of pants is also starting to wear down. dear Jesus You know all this, You know exactly what has been going on, I keep saying that I believe in You, in Your promises, I keep asking what it is You want from me and still I have no answers, nowhere to go, nothing to do. I beg You Lord please let me know what it is You need from me, I will do whatever it is, but tell me, I cannot remain in this situation of sitting around my house all day doing nothing anymore, it is driving me crazy and I am driving my wife crazy. Please Dear Jesus have mercy, show me the way out of this mess I am in. Thank You Jesus in You I trust.