We understand the deep pain you’re carrying—the weight of broken relationships, the sting of rejection, and the heavy burden of mental illness. These struggles are not unseen by God, and we want you to know that He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). It’s clear you’re crying out for help, and that is a good thing—it means your heart is still reaching for hope, even in the darkness.
First, let’s address something important: you mentioned asking God and *him* for forgiveness. We want to gently but firmly remind you that there is only **one** Mediator between God and man—the Lord Jesus Christ (1 Timothy 2:5). It is through **His name alone** that we find forgiveness, healing, and restoration. If you haven’t already, we urge you to place your full trust in Jesus Christ as your Savior. The Bible tells us, *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). If you’re unsure about this, we’d be honored to help you understand what it means to surrender your life to Christ—because true peace begins there.
Now, let’s speak to the wounds you’ve shared. The rejection from your father and the loss of friendship are painful losses, and grief is a natural response. But we must also ask: Are these relationships honoring to God? You mentioned a friend with whom you used "dotbe thebes"—if this refers to any form of divination, occult practices, or ungodly bonds (such as emotional or physical intimacy outside of marriage), we must lovingly but firmly rebuke this. The Bible warns, *"Don’t turn to those who are mediums, nor to the wizards. Don’t seek them out, to be defiled by them. I am Yahweh your God"* (Leviticus 19:31, WEB). Any relationship or practice that contradicts God’s Word will only bring more bondage, not freedom. If this friendship was tied to sin, it’s better to mourn its loss than to cling to what dishonors God. Repentance—turning away from sin and toward Christ—is the path to true healing.
As for your mental illness and phobias, we want you to know that God is not surprised by your struggles. He sees your battles, and He is able to bring you through them. The apostle Paul pleaded with the Lord to remove his "thorn in the flesh," and God’s response was, *"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"* (2 Corinthians 12:9, WEB). This doesn’t mean your pain is insignificant, but it does mean God’s strength can sustain you even in weakness. Have you sought godly counsel or medical help for your mental health? Wisdom often involves both prayer **and** practical steps. Proverbs 11:14 says, *"Where there is no wise guidance, the nation falls, but in the multitude of counselors there is victory."* Don’t walk this path alone—reach out to a pastor, a Christian counselor, or a trusted believer who can walk with you.
Lastly, we want to speak life over you: **You are not defined by your father’s rejection, your past mistakes, or your struggles.** If you are in Christ, you are a **new creation** (2 Corinthians 5:17). Your identity is found in Him—beloved, chosen, and redeemed. Even if your earthly father has turned away, your Heavenly Father will **never** leave you or forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6). Cling to that truth.
Now, let’s pray for you:
*"Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious soul to You, knowing that You collect every tear they’ve cried and hold their broken heart in Your hands. Lord, we ask that You reveal Yourself to them in a powerful way—let them know beyond doubt that they are **loved by You**, not because of what they’ve done, but because of who You are. If they have not yet surrendered fully to Jesus Christ, we pray You would draw them to Yourself today. Open their eyes to see that salvation, healing, and true peace are found in **no other name** but Yours.
Father, we rebuke the spirits of rejection, fear, and despair that have taken hold. We declare that **perfect love casts out fear** (1 John 4:18), and we ask You to flood their heart with Your love. Break the chains of mental illness, Lord—bring clarity where there is confusion, peace where there is anxiety, and hope where there is despair. Guide them to godly counsel and medical help if needed, and surround them with believers who will speak life into them.
For the relationships that have been lost, we ask for Your redemption. If there is unrepentant sin, bring conviction and true repentance. If these relationships were tied to ungodly practices, sever those ties completely, Lord, and replace them with godly connections that point to You. Soften their father’s heart, if it aligns with Your will, but even if it doesn’t, let them find their worth in **You alone**.
Strengthen them, Lord, to walk in obedience, even when it’s hard. Remind them that You are their Father, their Healer, and their Redeemer. Give them the courage to seek help, to fight for joy, and to trust You one day at a time. We ask all this in the **powerful name of Jesus Christ**, our Savior and King. Amen."*
Friend, we urge you to **cling to Jesus** above all else. Read His Word daily—start with the Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John) to see His love for you. Find a Bible-believing church where you can be discipled and surrounded by support. And if you ever feel like giving up, remember: **Your story isn’t over yet.** God is still writing redemption into your life. Keep fighting, keep praying, and keep your eyes on Him. You are **not** alone.