JEW
Prayer Warrior
My attitude is not what it should be right now, and i need your prayers. I do not want to be this way. I know God is not happy with me as of now. It is so hard to be positive about some things going on in my family, when all i see is negative things happening in their life. They do not seem to want to change. They seem to enjoy trying to disappoint their father and me and make us feel like all their problems they have had since they have moved out of our home is our fault. We raised them in a christian home that they should be so proud of, and once they left our home they have forgotten all those christian values that they were taught. We sacrificed to keep them in a christian school, and they were wonderful christian children growing up and made us so proud of them. But once they left our home all has changed. I can't believe they are our children. I am ashamed to call them my children now. i have shed so many tears and have prayed so many prayers, that i am burn out from praying for them. I think, what is the use? Both of our daughter's has committed adultry several times, and one of them drinks and is raising my grandchild to think that it is okay to live that way, that his grandma {me} is just old fashion, and times have changed. "God's word does not change". I have ask her to not come to my home with alcohol on her breath, and she does not listen. She tells my grandchild that i was too strict on her when she lived at home and she never got to do these things is the reason she is doing them now. This breaks my heart. I just want the Lord to do WHAT EVER IT TAKES to wake both {Pamela&Daphne} of my daughters up. And i want to sit back and watch their lives turn back to God. I want to have something to praise God for once again. I am so thirsty for God's word to fill me once again. I have a lot of false quilt on me because of being blamed for their sins, and i cannot seem to throw it off, although i know i did a wonderful job in raising my children the right way, but this one daughter keeps accusing me to make herself feel better for her sins. Please, please pray for me, that God will once again lift me up and bless me. Please pray that my grandchild will see christ in me, no matter what she tells him. She has not taken my grandson to church since last Christmas. I have ask her to let him go with us and i get no response. She literally makes fun of my religion, and teaches her son to make fun of me also. I do not flaunt my beliefs, but i do not hide them either. We are not suppose to be ashamed of God, if we do he will be ashamed of us. I am crying out for help as God's word literally tells me to.