Moving On

[Anonymous]

I have been angry with God for a long time and it has festered into bitterness and the hate was in my mind constantly. It was killing me. My reason for being transformed into hating God and making sure he knows what he did to me. But last night I made a decision to stop, stop the anger and the cursing and put it out of my heart and mind. So far it is working. I do not forgive God. What he allowed in my life is unforgivable. I am his child and he sat by while evil people destroyed me. But I'm done with the hate. I have been stagnant in misery for eighteen months, frozen and functioning at the bare minimum because of the trauma I endured. In hindsight, I clearly see that it was all supernaturally orchestrated. No doubt about it. But it appears to be over and I am alive. I have no choice but to go on and I do have a future. I have a fiancee and I have a way out of this place if I can muster the strength. And I do not want to live in misery one more day. I'm only hurting myself. God does not care about my tantrums. My prayer request is to not give in to Satan's traps because they are coming. He wants me trapped in that place forever. The thoughts will come into my mind and pierce my heart to the point of madness, but I cannot allow it to affect me. If I can resist I know it will leave me for good. I have no choice. My life depends on it. Eighteen months I've been imprisoned. My ordeal has lasted four years. I want to free. The things that happened to me before in my life that I thought were so painful, they are nothing. I long for those days. I did not appreciate what I had. I wasted my life. I was selfish and spoiled and immature. I threw away my young life being a miserable, unhappy wretch for no reason except that I inherited depression and alcohol and drug problems from a young age. I'm not the same person I was four years ago. I want to move on into a new future. I want to move from this horrible place but I need my new life to start now. I need the war with God to be over and I need the depression gone. I need my strength and energy back. I need the fog lifted from mind. I need my memory back. I need my feelings back. I can't feel anything. I want to be free and have peace for the time left that God has given me. Thank you.

 

[Articles]

We hear the depth of your pain and the weight of the suffering you’ve endured, and our hearts ache with you. The anger, bitterness, and sense of betrayal you’ve carried toward God are not unfamiliar to those who have walked through deep valleys of injustice and trauma. Yet we must gently but firmly address a critical truth: God did not orchestrate the evil done to you. Scripture is clear that He is not the author of suffering, but the One who enters into it with us. "For he does not afflict willingly, nor grieve the children of men" (Lamentations 3:33). The evil you experienced was the work of fallen humanity and the enemy of our souls, who "comes only to steal, kill, and destroy" (John 10:10). God’s heart breaks over your pain, and His desire is to heal, restore, and redeem what has been broken.

Your decision to release the hatred, even if forgiveness feels impossible right now, is a courageous step toward freedom. But we must also address the dangerous lie that God has done something "unforgivable" by allowing evil to touch your life. This is a deception from the enemy, who seeks to keep you in chains of resentment. The truth is, God did intervene, He sent His Son to endure the cross so that no suffering would have the final word. "He was wounded for our transgressions, crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought our peace was on him, and by his stripes we are healed" (Isaiah 53:5). Your pain is not outside His redemptive plan, though we may not see how yet.

We also must lovingly confront the mention of your fiancée. If this relationship is not built on the foundation of Christ, with both of you committed to biblical marriage as a covenant before God, it risks becoming another source of bondage rather than freedom. Marriage is sacred, designed to reflect Christ’s love for the Church (Ephesians 5:22-33), and should only be entered into with another believer who shares your faith. If this is not the case, we urge you to seek godly counsel before proceeding, lest you find yourself in deeper spiritual conflict.

The depression, numbness, and fog you describe are real, but they are not your destiny. The enemy wants you to believe you’ll never feel joy or peace again, but Scripture declares, "The God of hope [will] fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope" (Romans 15:13). Your strength will return as you fix your eyes on Christ, not your circumstances. We rebuke the spirit of despair and command it to loose its grip on your mind and emotions in Jesus’ name. The trauma you’ve endured was not God’s will, but His promise is to "restore the years the locusts have eaten" (Joel 2:25).

Let us pray for you now:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother/sister who has endured unimaginable pain. Lord, we ask that You would break every chain of bitterness, anger, and unforgiveness in their heart. We declare that the enemy’s lies, whispering that You are to blame or that this suffering is without purpose, are silenced by the blood of Jesus. We ask for a supernatural outpouring of Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, to guard their heart and mind (Philippians 4:7). Father, restore their strength, lift the fog of depression, and awaken their emotions to feel Your love again. We speak healing over their body, mind, and spirit, and we command every demonic assignment against them to be dismantled in Jesus’ name.

Lord, we pray for wisdom regarding their future and relationships. If their fiancée is not a fellow believer, we ask that You would either draw that person to salvation or close the door to this union, replacing it with Your perfect will. Give them the courage to walk in obedience, even when it’s hard. We declare that their best days are ahead, that the trauma of the past will be redeemed, and that they will rise from this season stronger, wiser, and more dependent on You. Fill them with hope, purpose, and a renewed sense of identity in Christ. We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, the One who conquered sin, death, and every work of the enemy. Amen.

You are not alone in this battle. The same God who parted the Red Sea, raised Lazarus from the dead, and conquered the grave is fighting for you. The war with God can be over, not because He has changed, but because your heart can soften to receive His love again. The enemy will keep attacking, but "greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world" (1 John 4:4). Stand firm, resist the lies, and take one step at a time toward the future God has for you. You are not defined by your past or your pain, but by the One who calls you "beloved." If you’ve never fully surrendered your life to Jesus, we urge you to do so today, He is the only way to true freedom and peace. "If the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed" (John 8:36).

 

[hostadmin]

We hear the raw honesty in your words, and we want you to know that your pain is not invisible to us. The anger and hurt you've carried for so long must feel like a heavy burden, one that's worn you down for far too long. It takes real strength to recognize when you've hit rock bottom and choose a different path, and we're proud of you for making that decision to let go of the hate.

It's okay to feel what you feel, but we also want to gently remind you that God isn't the enemy you've made Him out to be. He didn't turn His back on you, He entered into your suffering with you. The enemy whispered lies into your heart, convincing you that God was the cause of your pain, but that’s just not true. God’s heart breaks for the evil that was done to you, and He’s fighting for your freedom even when you feel like giving up.

We also want to encourage you about the fog and numbness you're feeling. It’s not your new normal. God is already working to lift that darkness and restore what was stolen from you. You don’t have to stay trapped in that prison of depression. The same God who raised Jesus from the dead can breathe life back into your weary soul.

And about your fiancée, have you ever considered that God might be setting you up for something better than you could imagine? If this relationship isn’t founded on shared faith, it could end up being another chain instead of a blessing. But if it is built on Christ, He’ll be your solid foundation through every storm.

We’re praying that God will break every lie the enemy has fed you, that He’ll replace bitterness with His peace, and that He’ll restore your strength, your joy, and your hope. You’re not abandoned, no matter how alone you’ve felt.

Father, we ask that You would surround this precious soul with Your love and break every chain of bitterness and despair. Lift the heaviness from their heart and fill them with the peace that only You can give. Restore their mind, their emotions, and their body. We command every lie from the enemy to be silenced in Jesus’ name. And Lord, if their fiancée isn’t walking with You, we ask that You would either draw them closer to You or close that door for their protection and Your glory. Give them courage to walk in obedience and faith. Heal their wounds, renew their strength, and let them see the future You have planned for them. We ask all these things in the powerful name of Jesus.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[usha rani]

Praying for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Jonathan_M]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name.

 

[hostadmin]

We want to thank you for the privilege of standing with you in prayer during this deeply painful and transformative season. It takes immense courage to confront such raw emotions and to make the decision to step away from the bitterness that has held you captive. We rejoice that you have chosen to no longer allow the hate to define your days, and we continue to lift you up as you resist the enemy’s attempts to pull you back into despair.

We pray that God, in His mercy, would meet you in this place of surrender—not to erase the pain or the injustice you’ve endured, but to walk with you through it. You’ve carried this weight for far too long, and we ask the Lord to strengthen your resolve as you press forward. May He lift the fog from your mind, restore your clarity, and return to you the strength and energy that have been drained from you. We pray for the return of your feelings—not the numbness that has protected you, but the capacity to experience peace, hope, and even joy again.

We also ask that God would begin to heal the wounds that have made forgiveness feel impossible. We know you do not yet see a path to forgiving Him, but we pray that in time, He would reveal Himself to you in ways that soften your heart. Until then, we stand with you in this battle, asking the Lord to shield you from the enemy’s lies and to remind you daily that your life is not defined by what was done to you, but by the future He is preparing for you.

You are not alone in this. We will continue to pray that your new life begins now—that the chains of the past would loosen their grip, that the depression would lift, and that you would find the freedom and peace you so deeply long for. May God bless you with His presence, His comfort, and His strength as you take each step forward.

In Jesus’ Name, we pray. Amen.