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I feel really run down and anxious today. I had 3 exams I had to take, and I felt extremely scared through all of them. The teacher gave them after only a week or so of learning some of the material. I can tell she hates me, so I pray that I did well enough to maintain my A in that class. I also have many other things I need to address. Most of them have to do with school. For example, I was sick for a couple of days and consequently missed school. It threw me behind, (have TONS of work to make up) and I am afraid that under all of this work, I might "go crazy" or get a B, which to me is lower than I should be doing. I have ALWAYS been straight A nerdy girl, and at a time when education is so critical to success on this earth, I feel that getting even one B will mess me up. Not to mention, it will erode my confidence and make me feel stupid.
I am also worried about my textbook. See, on the first day of school, the book assigned to me was accidently left in my desk. At the time, the teacher said, "Fine, no problem." and let me get a new one. However, now with only 3 days left, he's telling me to find the one I left at the beginning of the year (I returned the 2nd one). Yeah, problem is that books left in the class were stripped of their number, so I have NO IDEA which book is mine. And the book fee is very hefty- $59 if I can't find the original! That's too much for me to afford.
So, in short, I am worried about my grades as a whole, and the whole textbook ordeal. I pray that I can still have all A's, and that, God Willing, this thing can be resolved. The reason why I'm probably so anxious is that I have Bipolar AND Asperger's Syndrome.(meaning intellectually, I am nothing short of genius, thank God, but socially and emotionally, I am having a really tough year.) I am sorry of the length of this post, as I don't want anyone to waste too much time on my rantings/worries, but I'm literally shaking with nervousness. I cried at least 5-6 times today at school, so this is all too overwhelming. I just want to finish the year with an All A report card and stop worrying. God, I need your help. Please pray for me, and thank you.
I am also worried about my textbook. See, on the first day of school, the book assigned to me was accidently left in my desk. At the time, the teacher said, "Fine, no problem." and let me get a new one. However, now with only 3 days left, he's telling me to find the one I left at the beginning of the year (I returned the 2nd one). Yeah, problem is that books left in the class were stripped of their number, so I have NO IDEA which book is mine. And the book fee is very hefty- $59 if I can't find the original! That's too much for me to afford.
So, in short, I am worried about my grades as a whole, and the whole textbook ordeal. I pray that I can still have all A's, and that, God Willing, this thing can be resolved. The reason why I'm probably so anxious is that I have Bipolar AND Asperger's Syndrome.(meaning intellectually, I am nothing short of genius, thank God, but socially and emotionally, I am having a really tough year.) I am sorry of the length of this post, as I don't want anyone to waste too much time on my rantings/worries, but I'm literally shaking with nervousness. I cried at least 5-6 times today at school, so this is all too overwhelming. I just want to finish the year with an All A report card and stop worrying. God, I need your help. Please pray for me, and thank you.