Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hello Beloved
I need prayers; my life is such a mess as a result, I no longer confide in my Pastor. I feel like I'm annoying or always have problems; it's been a whole 3 years like this.
I used to have everything—cars, houses, money—but the truth is, I did not know God then.
Year 2012, I became saved. Yes, I keep falling off the wagon because I feel like my prayers are not being considered. I pray, I fast, I evangelize, but things are going from bad to worse.
This year, it's worse. On top of that, I'm HIV+. My family doesn't know that. I stopped taking treatment because it makes me sick. I'm broke; I can't find jobs. I'm a qualified teacher; it's been 15 years now.
Now I'm self-employed. I do get piece-by-piece jobs, but everything goes to rent. And now I'm being kicked out of the place I'm renting; I don't know the reason. I found another place, unfortunately, I was scammed out of my last money. It seems the person I rented from is a scammer; they don't even have the place I'm renting, and now they disappeared with my money.
I'm stressed; there is no food next week. We must move, but I don't know where, as I don't have any money now.
My business cards are everywhere in order to get jobs, but people keep promising and disappear.
I'm even thinking of committing suicide; I really can't bear this. My kids are suffering; I owe fees.
I really need prayers. I really don't know why God is punishing me. It's been a long time now; I'm drained.
I need prayers; my life is such a mess as a result, I no longer confide in my Pastor. I feel like I'm annoying or always have problems; it's been a whole 3 years like this.
I used to have everything—cars, houses, money—but the truth is, I did not know God then.
Year 2012, I became saved. Yes, I keep falling off the wagon because I feel like my prayers are not being considered. I pray, I fast, I evangelize, but things are going from bad to worse.
This year, it's worse. On top of that, I'm HIV+. My family doesn't know that. I stopped taking treatment because it makes me sick. I'm broke; I can't find jobs. I'm a qualified teacher; it's been 15 years now.
Now I'm self-employed. I do get piece-by-piece jobs, but everything goes to rent. And now I'm being kicked out of the place I'm renting; I don't know the reason. I found another place, unfortunately, I was scammed out of my last money. It seems the person I rented from is a scammer; they don't even have the place I'm renting, and now they disappeared with my money.
I'm stressed; there is no food next week. We must move, but I don't know where, as I don't have any money now.
My business cards are everywhere in order to get jobs, but people keep promising and disappear.
I'm even thinking of committing suicide; I really can't bear this. My kids are suffering; I owe fees.
I really need prayers. I really don't know why God is punishing me. It's been a long time now; I'm drained.
