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michael
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First of all, I am not a very religious person and I have no church of faith or denomination. I grew up a Lutheran with very strong minded and religious parents who are now both passed o n. My problem is that I am a very DEAD END with my marriage (second marriage). I am the one at fault, yes I had an affair that I broke off but the "other" woman approached my wife with ugly thoughts and some truths but mostly lies that did nothing but enflame the intensity of the situation. This was a 10 days ago. Since then I have been evicted from My own home by my wife who filed an "Emergency Order of Protection" against me. NO there was no abuse, Yes there was a fight with NO physical confrontation, but with help from my wifes children, She was steered to get that order. I dont get to see a judge about my house until 8/10/10 at which time I feel I will have to fite for my life.
I screwed up profusely and know it. I want my marriage back, I want my wife back I want to be whole again. Some would say I had it coming for what I did. I know it, BUT the Hell I am now living has approached the unbearable stage. I am in fear of totally losing my wife (I fear she is gone now) because I can not have any contact with her. I guess I could say that, Hypocritcally, I have thinking about God again and praying intensely. I fear he has turned his back on my poor illustraton of a man and an honorable one. I dont know what to do and thoughts of taking my life have crept into my thoughts, which has been exassperated by total lake of sleep, appetite and feeling any sense of pride or living for that matter.
GOD, can someone help me. I cry all the time, I am depresseed 24/7 and dont know where to turn. Maybe prayer, I dont know
Help me
Michael Chapman
I screwed up profusely and know it. I want my marriage back, I want my wife back I want to be whole again. Some would say I had it coming for what I did. I know it, BUT the Hell I am now living has approached the unbearable stage. I am in fear of totally losing my wife (I fear she is gone now) because I can not have any contact with her. I guess I could say that, Hypocritcally, I have thinking about God again and praying intensely. I fear he has turned his back on my poor illustraton of a man and an honorable one. I dont know what to do and thoughts of taking my life have crept into my thoughts, which has been exassperated by total lake of sleep, appetite and feeling any sense of pride or living for that matter.
GOD, can someone help me. I cry all the time, I am depresseed 24/7 and dont know where to turn. Maybe prayer, I dont know
Help me
Michael Chapman
