You are already saved! You DO believe in your heart that Jesus died for you; otherwise, you wouldn't be at this forum! The bible says whosoever calls upon the name of the Lord shall be saved and you've done that! I John 4:15. It also says 'if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us of our unrighteousness.' He has already removed your sins as far as the east is from the west! He remembers them NO MORE! So don't bring them up! They are covered by the blood of Calvary! God sees you through the blood of Jesus and that's what makes you fit to come before Him. Repent and ask the Lord to forgive you of your sins up to this point and He will. It's that easy! You will know of His tremendous love for you when you open His word up and start reading. Your name is engraved upon the palm of His hand and you are constantly in His thoughts the Psalmist tells us. Psalm 40:17. My dear friend, God will NEVER leave you! The bible says He is close to those whose hearts are broken (that's you, my friend!)! He said, 'I will never fail thee nor forsake thee.' Joshua 1:5. You must get into the word and allow God to speak to you through His word! We thank you, Lord, for helping your servant to draw close to you right now, Lord, comforting his heart that he may know you, your will and purposes for his life. Thank you, Lord, for revealing yourself to him that he may feel your presence and seek you diligently. We plead the blood of the cross over him right now and bind and rebuke that enemy coming against him, his life, his family, his wife, his job and all that he owns and is! We bind those curses to the demons 100-fold and cast them back to the pit of hell where they came from. Whom the Son sets free, is free indeed! Thank you, Lord, for restoring him whole, healing and delivering him in the name of Jesus and give thanks now for, amen and amen!!