Here recently I've come to some realizations. I'm not really cut out to be a husband or a father, and because of my autism I have to rely a little bit on others for support, meaning, I'll probably never be independent. I have lost confidence in my abilities to do things. I'm seeking help, but I'm afraid it's too late. I am an adult but I cannot get myself together. I mess up a lot. I have trouble remembering to do important tasks without constant reminders. I can't seem to develop good study habits, and I procrastinate way too much. I want to become better at these things but here lately I seem to be going backwards. I know God wants me to work hard and become better, but right now I am so depressed that I have trouble motivating myself. I've lost confidence in myself. I'm afraid I'll hit rock bottom and stay there. I know I need God, I've acknowledged that more than once. I ask for forgiveness, and for wisdom even, and yet, I just keep falling. Why would he continue to bring me down when I already know I need his help. I know this sounds crazy but, I feel almost like God is forcing me to give up on my hopes for a wife. I think I really am supposed to be single, but I don't feel at peace with it. Why? I guess I'm just not good enough for God to work miracles in my life. I don't pray enough, don't spend enough time in the word, and I sin more than I realize. I have been reading that it's not enough to just accept Christ as my Lord and Savior but also to follow him. I'm not so good at the following part. I've tried, but I guess unless I become better at it, I'm not really saved am I. Correct me if I'm wrong. But I cannot process this. I'm confused. I surrender, I wait a while, and nothing happens. I want to get married someday, but without God it's impossible. No one's gonna want me. God is my only hope, and yet I am where I was again. I give up. I can't seem to get God to turn to me. I guess I'm blind if I'm wrong, but, I guess even he knows I'm not worth the trouble. I feel like I'm completely on my own. What do you do when you lose hope? I fear if I quit completely God will throw me in hell, but I feel like I was predestined for that anyway. I don't know what to say or do. I'm scared. I love God but I feel like he doesn't want me anymore. My faith is dying, and no matter how much I pray for revival, I feel nothing. I try to read my Bible, but quickly burn out. Please tell me God doesn't give up on me. Tell me he's still holding me. Because right now, I feel like I've fallen, and can't get back up. What's going on? Why do I feel these things?
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Lost Hope
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We all waver in faith at times. Praying for more faith, reading God's word, and going to church will help these things. A good Bible study group will help in understanding, as well as provide people to pray with and who can get to know you and support you.
Don't doubt your salvation because of wavering faith. Salvation is forever.
Everything that you listed is things that all of us struggle with. It sounds like you face issues from the autism that I don't understand, but just realize that some of the things you listed are part of being human, part of reaching adulthood.
God does not want you to be alone -- he has given all of us desires and needs to be with other humans for love, support, companionship, family.
In a good relationship, people depend on each other in different ways. People with disabilities often are more dependent on their spouses in ways than non-disabled people are not. ### (a quadriplegic) has shared a lot of information about her struggles in relying on her husband (she also has an assistant to help her). Her writing will inspire you.
I pray that you will have restored hope, and be guided in your life decisions. God bless you and keep you.
Here is a website with videos and articles, which is run by two adult men with Aspergers. You probably already know about it, but it looks like it has some good information.
Autism Experts - Help & Hope From Those Who've Lived It
Don't doubt your salvation because of wavering faith. Salvation is forever.
Everything that you listed is things that all of us struggle with. It sounds like you face issues from the autism that I don't understand, but just realize that some of the things you listed are part of being human, part of reaching adulthood.
God does not want you to be alone -- he has given all of us desires and needs to be with other humans for love, support, companionship, family.
In a good relationship, people depend on each other in different ways. People with disabilities often are more dependent on their spouses in ways than non-disabled people are not. ### (a quadriplegic) has shared a lot of information about her struggles in relying on her husband (she also has an assistant to help her). Her writing will inspire you.
I pray that you will have restored hope, and be guided in your life decisions. God bless you and keep you.
Here is a website with videos and articles, which is run by two adult men with Aspergers. You probably already know about it, but it looks like it has some good information.
Autism Experts - Help & Hope From Those Who've Lived It
Glory to God
Beloved of All
praying for you in Jesus Christ precious name. amen
