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Lord, you know how much I love ###. I know he had a ton of issues, he was dealing with ...even the ones he didn't acknowledge to me. So it hurted him, whenever I wasn't there for him enough. Whenever he pushed me away, I realized after he physically abused me the other day. He really just needed me to pull him closer. Me being the only one that wouldn't walk out on him. I guess, he couldn't handle me leaving when things weren't right. But, I promise. Never have I felt so loved by a man at times and appreciated outside of the physical abuse he's done twice ...I can't claim if he has a good heart or a bad one. Since he's done what he's done. But he has a mean streak at times. Since I'm pressing charges Monday, I doubt I could ever just be his friend. But being the woman God has created me. I'm gonna forgive him at a distance since he apologized a lot of times. But there can never be an us again. He needs some type of help. My parents, and sister and others are hurt and upset at what he's done to me. My father has been crying, because I'm still 'babygirl' to him. I just pray God, make everything work according to his way. I'm pressing charges because I deserve justice for what happened to me, regardless of my feelings towards him. He needs a reality check.
