bronson38
Beloved of All
LORD, what i do not understand why did you change my heart about M.A.? I have known him for 23 years, we did go out for a year in a half, and we remain friends for a little over a year now. Back then when we were 16 he said all these years he had a huge crush on me. What happened with all of this? Help me to understand and have clarity. All these years go by now i am so in love with him it kills me! I really did not even want to date him, but a part of me did it anyways just to not feel lonely, and i was hurt that someone else i deeply loved before him goes to jail and never got out due to him passing away. Forgive me if that sounds cold but it is the truth. It was like i was forced for some reason to be with my ex M.A. and it felt like i was being pushed to go with him. It is a feeling i cannot describe. Someone i never knew i would even up with, i am praying to now be with him. I need answers on where i stand to move all this forward. Please Lord, heal our hearts! IJNIP
