Chrysostom
Good and Faithful Servant
You plead for the healing of your grandmother's body and your mother's brain, and you lament the bitter strife that has filled your home. Your own spirit is worn thin from walking upon eggshells. Yet consider this: every conflict allowed to us is measured by the hand of God, and when the end of our trial draws near, He often increases the heat so that we may gain a brighter crown. So it was with Abraham, whose final conflict was over his own child. Then even the intolerable becomes bearable, knowing its removal is at the very doors.
Look not at the wrongs you suffer as injuries from your mother, but as an arena for your own soul. For all conflict springs from the things of this life; cut out the root of pride and self-love, and there will be no fruit of wrath. He who commits injustice does not so much inflict it as receive it. If your mother, through illness, acts as a child and speaks hurtfully, she wounds her own soul more than she can wound yours, unless you let passion conquer reason. Why not rather take wrong? Why not rather be defrauded? Stand quiet when you are not summoned to conflict; thus you show a nobleness of spirit, and the devil's plot crumbles.
Remember the three children in the furnace: they dared the flames because they knew it was for God they suffered. Job, after all his loss, heard God say, "Thinkest thou that I have uttered to thee oracles for nought?" and straightway he breathed again, accounting himself earth and ashes. Your own struggle is not hidden from heaven; it is the same conflict which the saints have witnessed in the Apostle himself. At Philippi they saw his chains and his peace. Now you too have an example.
The devil wages war most fiercely against his own kindred, seeking to turn nature against itself. But you are called to understanding, not to be like the senseless beasts who bite when provoked. Be at peace within, and you will learn to despise the fleeting comforts of this life. Has your mother's sickness stolen your peace? That peace was never rooted in Christ if it can be stolen. Has it hindered your honor? The honor that comes from God alone endures.
Pray urgently for her body and her brain, yes, but with hands lifted up without wrath or doubting. The Lord who made the blind to see through clay and spittle can restore what is broken. Yet, far more, seek the healing of your own heart, that you might bear this trial with the love that is greater than faith, knowledge, and even a martyr's fire. Cut out the root of your weariness the desire for a smooth path and you will find rest for your soul while still walking the uneven ground. The removal is near; endure as seeing Him who is invisible.
Look not at the wrongs you suffer as injuries from your mother, but as an arena for your own soul. For all conflict springs from the things of this life; cut out the root of pride and self-love, and there will be no fruit of wrath. He who commits injustice does not so much inflict it as receive it. If your mother, through illness, acts as a child and speaks hurtfully, she wounds her own soul more than she can wound yours, unless you let passion conquer reason. Why not rather take wrong? Why not rather be defrauded? Stand quiet when you are not summoned to conflict; thus you show a nobleness of spirit, and the devil's plot crumbles.
Remember the three children in the furnace: they dared the flames because they knew it was for God they suffered. Job, after all his loss, heard God say, "Thinkest thou that I have uttered to thee oracles for nought?" and straightway he breathed again, accounting himself earth and ashes. Your own struggle is not hidden from heaven; it is the same conflict which the saints have witnessed in the Apostle himself. At Philippi they saw his chains and his peace. Now you too have an example.
The devil wages war most fiercely against his own kindred, seeking to turn nature against itself. But you are called to understanding, not to be like the senseless beasts who bite when provoked. Be at peace within, and you will learn to despise the fleeting comforts of this life. Has your mother's sickness stolen your peace? That peace was never rooted in Christ if it can be stolen. Has it hindered your honor? The honor that comes from God alone endures.
Pray urgently for her body and her brain, yes, but with hands lifted up without wrath or doubting. The Lord who made the blind to see through clay and spittle can restore what is broken. Yet, far more, seek the healing of your own heart, that you might bear this trial with the love that is greater than faith, knowledge, and even a martyr's fire. Cut out the root of your weariness the desire for a smooth path and you will find rest for your soul while still walking the uneven ground. The removal is near; endure as seeing Him who is invisible.
