Anatosa, let's put things in order. One of the first commandments is "I am the Lord your God, you shall not have any other gods before Me." Anything we put before God is idolatry. That thing or person is first before God. Jesus also says "Matt 10:37 He who loves father, mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; and He who loves daughter or son more than me is not worthy of Me." (this covers aunts, uncles, husbands, wife, even boyfriends, best friends) When things or our love is not in Christ, it is unbalanced. You are fearfully and wonderfully created by God, and are made in His image. Therefore your identity is from God, and not in a person. Our self-esteem comes from God. He created you, not a boyfriend, or a husband. However, when we are attached to someone and they part, it hurts, but God will heal your broken heart. This is a part of life.
Father, I pray that ### will just pour out her grief upon You and cry to you instead of drinking. I pray against the spirit of self-rejection and self-hate. I pray against the spirit of rejection over her life. I pray against the spirit of dependency that she has toward this man in Jesus' name to be broken. Send your ministering angels to minister to her in Jesus' name. Father, Satan has set her up and deceived her in this unholy relationship and she fell prey to his tricks, then he let her hopes down as she discovered nothing. Father, she was looking for love like we all do. Give her that living water by your Holy Spirit. Let her know that you are love. Father, I pray as she is healed and restored, send a Godly man to love her. Young lady, get yourself a Bible and find a good church to go to in Jesus' name.
) If anyone understands your pain, it's me. I have been in emotional pain for most of my life. There have been plenty of times when I too wanted to end my life. As a matter of fact, the thought crossed my mind tonight. The one reason I haven’t ended my life is because of my beliefs. Do you remember the sixth (I believe it’s the sixth) commandment? “Thou shall not kill.” Well, what do you think suicide is? You and I are both living in “hell” on earth, right? Why, then, would you want to just give your soul to Satan? It’s bad enough we’re living in hell, why would you want to live in eternal hell? If I live the rest of my days in “hell” of earth, that’s fine, Satan can have my days on earth, but there’s no way I’m just going to hand over my eternal life to him. I have too many treasures waiting for me in heaven. Why would I want to give up my treasures God has waiting for me? Furthermore, I know how you feel when you say you’re worthless and a failure. I say those things to myself everyday. I literally hate myself. But, you have to remind yourself that it’s not you that isn’t worthy. It’s the world that isn’t worthy of you for you don’t belong to the world but belong to God. Anatosa, believe me; I know it’s easier said than done. Remember that I’m living in hell too. You are not alone. Also, I understand that you want to drink to try to make yourself numb, but drinking isn’t the answer. It only adds to the problem and makes it worse. When I was younger, I drank a lot. What I realize is that it only causes more problems, causes you to make more mistakes and also doesn’t allow you to face up and deal with the problems or issues at hand. Last, I have a friend that I miss too. I haven’t heard from him in days. I know it hurts. Please put down the bottle and look to God for strength. It’s not in that bottle. I will be praying for you and hope this post helps you at least a little. God bless…
