I am praying very hard for your intentions. Yours is a really sad case, but for many people the holidays are very, very stressful. I have a stormy relationship with my family -- I am kind of like the family dog -- and I was estranged from them for quite a while. I am glad I got back with them. I wanted a family so badly and was so lonely not to have one. But I'll tell you what -- I actually was closer to God back then, any my holidays held more beauty and meaning. I would spend my Thanksgiving going to church, reading inspirational books, etc. I cooked the whole meal for myself and for my old boyfriend -- We lived together for years but CHASTELY. I did a beautiful job on the Thanksgiving meal. Now, I have not cooked in years since getting back with my family. I am just dwarfed by them so I don't even bother trying. And Advent -- I had a whole special table with Advent meditations, the candles, everything. I decorated my apartment to the gills. I lived on the third floor and had a balcony. I actually had lighted wreaths and a Christmas tree on a timer outside. Nobody in those kinds of buildings had that except for me. I put up signs that said, "Happy Birthday, Jesus." And I went to sometimes two masses, one on Christmas Eve and one on Christmas. I would meditate all day on the mass and on the meaning of Christmas. I also set a plate for Jesus at my kitchen table on Christmas day. Oh -- And I had two manger scenes. At midnight on Christmas Eve, I would put the baby Jesus figurine in the stable crib and sing happy birthday to Jesus. It was all beautiful, meaningful and to the point of the holiday. Since I got back with my family, it is wonderful to have them to spend Christmas with. But there is tension and dysfunction in the family. There is pressure to act super happy. There is much less emphasis put on the true religious meaning of the holiday. And I no longer cook at all. I just am peripheral, like I always was and always will be. So -- Maybe the thing to do is to get back to the real meaning of these holidays as much as possible. Brace yourself for what you know will be stressful times, but try to carve out YOUR OWN TIME with the Lord. That is what I intend to do. God bless you and keep you. I pray you have wonderful holidays and that even if people disturb them, your heart will not be disturbed. I also pray that your mother will be richly blessed. I pray in the name of Jesus of Nazareth. Amen and amen.
Hi Lamb.
So good to hear from you again. First off, thank you (and to everyone) for their prayers. It truly means a lot, really. May the Lord bless you all for doing so. Yes, I remember from this last year you had said you had some issues with family as well. Yes, it is very stressful. I thank the Lord that he has given me the faith and the strength to come to Him each time and to place all these things at His feet. Thank you for your advice and testimony that gave when you and Lord were together (as one) on the holidays (and everyday) when you were estranged from your family. Yes, the holidays are stressful, but what is more prevalent in my issue is peoples' ego, self-centeredness, negativity, sociopathy, and attention-seeking to glorify themselves. If this had happened years ago, these circumstances would have left me shaken and I would bailed out on them and the Lord. But, since I am stronger in the Lord and Spirit, I make sure to go right away to the Lord. Please continue to pray for us and for peace from the True Prince of Peace, our Lord Jesus.