Mattosan, I understand your message. It's like how much more Lord. I can't bear it any longer. I have prayed & prayed & prayed. When are U going to answer? It sounds very familiar to us all. God has more confident in U, than U think. He never give us more than we can bear. It is U who do not think U can handle it. God knows U can handle it, through His son Jesus, trusting in Him. (to myself, too)
Mattosan, look at this. Why does God test U, because He values U. A jeweler does not test wood, tin, aluminum. He examined, testes siler, gold, & precious stones. Fake jewelers, he ignored. Don't U know God calls U precious stones, royal priesthood, living epistles. Because U have value, God will try your faith. God allow test for those whom He has special purpose. 1Peter 1:7, 4:12 (firey trials)
James 1:1-4 In verse 3&4 Be assured & understand (Mattson) that the trial & provings of your faith brings out ENDUANCE(lack endurance) & STEADFASTNESS & PATIENCE.
Mattason ) Let ENDURANCE & STEADFASTNESS & PATIENCE have full play & do a THOROUGH work, (in U) so that U may be perfectly & fully developed (with no defect) lacking in nothing. God wants to established your value as true man of God. Read Romans 12:1-2
When Job recognized that God was testing him (job 23:10) he said "I shall come forth as gold. Gold tested by fire. God was proud of Job. Job cried out, but never gave up. Do u know that God shows us off Job before satan saying "have u, satan consider my servant Job. Job lost all his children, servants, wealth, wife, his body fill with sores. His 3 best friends accused him falsely. My brother obedience to God's word make us dependence upon God & lean not on our own understanding.
Can u endure, your trials. What does God want to establish in u. can it be patience, endurance, vigilance. can your foundation be tested being founded on the rock (Jesus)
God is concern about your foundation, so u can weather the storms, disappointments, loneleness, etc. By facing this battle now, it will prepare to for future battle to come.
TRUST IN GOD'S WORDS. BE ON THE SAME PAGE WITH GOD. Posture your heart & soul on the word of God & not your circimstances. Get the word of God in your spirit.
God bless U.