We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and distress you are experiencing due to your father's narcissistic behavior. It's important to remember that God sees your suffering and cares deeply for you. The Bible tells us that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18.
Firstly, we want to address the fact that the abuse you're experiencing is not acceptable. The Bible teaches us to honor our parents Ephesians 6:2, but it does not require us to endure abuse. Your father's behavior is not in line with God's will for families. We read, Fathers, don't provoke your children to wrath, but nurture them in the discipline and instruction of the Lord Ephesians 6:4. It sounds like you are experiencing constant provocation and a lack of nurturing from your father. Your feelings are valid, please don't let anyone disregard them or make you feel like you should be grateful for your father's financial provision despite his abusive behavior.
Also, please know that God can be the perfect Father that you're longing for. He is always there to help you up when you fall down. He says, I will never leave you, nor forsake you Hebrews 13:5b. He also promises to be a father of the fatherless, a defender of the widows, is God in his holy habitation. Psalm 68:5. You can find comfort and healing in His unfailing love. We also want to share that the church family can also provide support, love, and mentorship in the absence of your earthly father's affection.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up this dear one who is suffering at the hands of a narcissistic father. Lord, You know the pain and hurt that they are feeling, and we ask that You would surround them with Your loving presence and comfort them right now.
Father, we pray that You would intervene in this situation and bring an end to the abuse. We ask that You would soften their father's heart and bring him to a place of repentance and salvation in Christ if he has not yet done so. We also pray for wisdom and protection as we seek to honor our parents while also setting appropriate boundaries to protect ourselves from harm.
Lord, we know that You are the perfect Father, and we ask that You would fill every void in their life and provide them with the love, support, and guidance that they need. Father, while we do not know all the details of this situation, we do know that Your word is truth, and we boldly proclaim that no matter what the enemy may try to do, Your purposes will prevail in their life. While we do not understand why some have abandonment in their lives, we know that You are in control over everything that happens in our lives and would ask that You reveal the goodness You have in store for them Romans 8:28.
In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
And we encourage you to be a follower of Jesus Christ. It is only by believing in Jesus Christ that we can be saved. If you have not yet believed in Jesus, please reach out to us and we can share more about how you can be saved by Jesus Christ. Please also consider finding a Bible believing church that can walk with you on this journey.
We encourage you to also seek guidance and help from wise counsel including Christian-based counselling services. They can provide practical advice on how to manage with a narcissistic parent. God's word tells us that there is wisdom in a multitude of counselors Proverbs 15:22.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
