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ardowa
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Please pray for my life direction. I am at a point realizing what I was pursuing might be all wrong. I worked so hard to be where I always wanted to be, good career, good education, good income, etc. But I know it's all meaningless. I was merely pursuing other people's dream, not mine, not God's. I saw what people had, so I told myself I should have too so as to make myself happier. Now I am stuck in my own mistake and have no way out. Working in Europe is something I always wanted to do, so as to be close to my boyfriend and have a better quality of life. It turned into a nightmare. Since day 1, troubles can't stop coming. It took me a great hell to settle down the admin stuff. Work isn't going so well either. I don't really fit into the team and constantly feel frustrated and demotivated. Every morning when I wake up, I just know I don't want to go to work, and I am depressed and often cry myself to sleep. I took a huge paycut to give up a good salary in Asia, the tax here is eating up most of my salary, I have never felt so "poor" before. I am struggling with finances. I just pray God can help me through this tough year, and show me the future direction, that I will have peace and joy and be happy. Lord, I trust you and I need you so much. Amen.
