(last posting)

[Sad mommy of two]

I realized after I posted that last post that it was so confusing. The tears were falling and I was sympathetic, I apologize. My best friend from thirteen years ago walked away from our friendship when I was sixteen without even saying Good Bye. He tried to come back and talk to me weeks later and I was so angry I wouldn't have it. I never saw him again. He married a lady a few years older than him and had her baby.

I felt like half a person without him and so for all these years I have been walking around half of who I could be. I never stopped caring. Yes I loved him, but I loved my husband as well. My husband doesn't love me. He's abusive, an alcoholic and emotionally mean to my kids as well as myself. I have prayed for so long just to see my friend ago, that boy I once loved when we were sixteen and a couple weeks ago there he was. Divorced and moving on from his own bad marriage. I don't want to lose my husband, marriage is something I strongly believe in but this marriage isn't good. Yet I try to make it work.

I just want my friend back in my life again. I have tried to call and email him, but he wont return my requests. I don't know if this is on purpose or not but I don't want to come off as pushy. I missed him so much and I am desperate just to talk to him. PLEASE pray that he'll talk to me. Thirteen years is a long time.. I need him in my life. He was my rock back then and how I managed all these years without him I still dont know.

Please pray... please.

 

[Christine]

Hi,

I read both of your posts and prayed earnestly for you. I asked the Lord to guide you and give you wisdom. I asked Him to help you do what was best in God's eyes for your kids and yourself. I prayed you would find the comfort, strength, fellowship and the support you long for, in Jesus Christ. I prayed you would surrender your will and your feelings and desires to God and obey him and trust Him to lead you according to His will and to what is ultimately best for you. I also prayed He would help you know if you should stay married to someone who in dangerous and unfaithful. And if you do decide to stay with him, I asked that this other man not come any closer to you, because developing a relationship with him while married to your husband will only harm your marriage further. And could even put you in greater danger. I realize I don't know all the facts, but I do know a woman should not have a male best friend who is not her husband. That is only asking for trouble and heartache and discontentment. So above all I asked that the Lord's will be done, and that you would desire that also. He DOES know all the details, He even knows the future. He knows and desires what is best for you, and you CAN trust Him!