BABWPrincess
Disciple of Prayer
Please, please, please just pay extra hard for me! I know it sounds a bit much to ask so strongly about a job & moving when there are people that need MUCH bigger prayers, but I'm SO worn down & tired at this point. I have been for a while. I'm trying to be calm. I'm trying to have peace. I'm trying to be patient. (I feel like the woman version of Job, honestly. All this waiting with work & moving. Plus, always thinking I'd be married half my life ago & that I've have about 20 kids by now, but I still haven't met my husband yet & I'm saving myself for marriage, so no children. I do plan on adopting after I move.) I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but I was given so much hope this time! The principal all but said the words, "I want to hire you right now! HR has to do it though." For those who haven't read my other posts or have forgotten, this all started 7½ months ago, when I was in my car crying & praying about something & I heard God's audible voice telling me, "Now's the time. Now's the time to do what you've always wanted to do & move to (my favorite place)!" It's been 7½ months of excitement, frustration, job searching (even looking in retail management, a work environment I never thought I'd be willing to go back to), making audition videos no one would take because they weren't in audition season, getting hyped up over false promises & job descriptions that were lies, going through the absolute wringer to get my teaching license (the 1 I had in my old state expired over a decade ago & just about every setback I could have getting this new one has happened), & waiting to hear something. The 1 score that was missing was finally posted to the website this morning & I was able to officially apply for my teaching license, so that's a praise for sure! The interview I had recently went incredibly well! I've already asked for prayer on here for it. I was all but promised the job by the principal but HR is in charge. They may be hung up on the pending license, the current distance, the fact that my fingerprints & drug test hasn't been done yet. I've called constantly, left 2 voicemails & an email, trying to express my concerns & ask questions. I'll be there next week for either a trip or to move in, so I can easily take care of any lose ends then. I just need to hear the word! A couple days ago, I was in the shower, once again crying & praying, over this SPECIFIC situation this time, & guess what?! I HEARD GOD'S AUDIBLE VOICE AGAIN! This time, He said 2 simple words... "It's time." It sounds great! In my simple human mind, "It's time," means right now, this position! I also understand that God works on His own timing in His own way with His own vocabulary. "It's time" very well could mean that or it could mean in a few months. At this point, I'm trying to be more calm, more patient, more worry-free than ever, but I also can't help but stay in a constant state of prayer, check my phone every 2 seconds, & just feel like I'm absolutely losing my mind waiting around for an answer! It feels like I've been waiting for years & it's never going to happen. I know that's not true. I know I have God's promise & I couldn't be happier! I'm just tired.

Time will tell. I know that God has had it all preordained since before the dawn of time & it will all work out according to His will & plan, in His timing, which is MUCH better than anything I could have ever planned myself! I just need His help with the patience & peace on the waiting. I truly appreciate all the prayers & kind, encouraging words from my Sisters & Brothers in Christ! 
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.