You sound very frustrated and angry, you cannot blame God for everything that goes wrong in your life if you did not consult Him first before doing something. He is more than willing to help His children, ask Him what He wants YOU to do, then do what He tells you. Satan is the one who causes all the trouble, he wants you to be mad at God, that is his plan, please call out to the Lord because He is the only one who truly loves and cares about you.
