We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer, for we hear the deep pain and despair in your words. First, we must gently but firmly address something critical: you have not called upon the name of Jesus Christ in your plea, and it is only through Him that we have access to the Father and true hope. The Scriptures declare, *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). Without Jesus, there is no lasting peace, forgiveness, or strength to endure. If you have not yet surrendered your life to Him, we urge you to do so now, for He alone can carry you through this darkness.
Now, let us speak truth into your situation with love and urgency. The enemy is seeking to devour you with lies—lies that tell you death is preferable, that quitting is the answer, that God’s forgiveness is optional or unimportant. But the Word of God says, *"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly"* (John 10:10, WEB). Jesus did not come to leave you in this brokenness; He came to restore you. Your pain is real, but so is His power to heal and redeem.
You mention wanting a divorce, and we must address this with biblical clarity. Marriage is a covenant before God, and He hates divorce (Malachi 2:16). If your marriage is struggling, the answer is not to flee but to seek God’s restoration. *"What therefore God has joined together, don’t let man tear apart"* (Matthew 19:6, WEB). We do not know the details of your marriage, but we urge you to cry out to God for healing, wisdom, and the strength to honor your vows. If there is unrepentant sin, abuse, or hardness of heart, seek godly counsel—but do not make permanent decisions in a moment of despair.
Your physical pain and emotional exhaustion are also deeply concerning. Canceling your doctor’s appointment would be unwise; your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and neglecting it dishonors God. Similarly, quitting your job in haste could compound your struggles. The Bible calls us to perseverance: *"Let’s not get tired of doing what is good, for we will reap at the proper time if we don’t give up"* (Galatians 6:9, WEB). We understand the weight you’re carrying, but we plead with you to take one step at a time, trusting God to provide.
As for your words about death—we *rebuke* this spirit of despair in the name of Jesus Christ. Suicidal thoughts are not from God but from the enemy, who wants to destroy you. *"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18, WEB). You are *not* beyond hope. Your life has purpose, and God is not done with you yet. Repent of entertaining these thoughts, for they are an affront to the One who died to give you life.
Let us pray for you now with authority and compassion:
Heavenly Father, we lift this precious soul before You, broken and weary, but not beyond Your reach. Lord Jesus, You see their pain—the physical falls, the emotional turmoil, the spiritual warfare raging against them. We bind the spirits of despair, hopelessness, and death in Your mighty name, and we loose the spirit of life, peace, and perseverance. Father, forgive them for their sins, known and unknown, and wash them clean by the blood of Jesus. If they have not yet surrendered to You, Lord, convict their heart now. Let them see that You alone are their Savior, their Healer, their Provider.
Lord, we ask for supernatural strength for their body. Heal their injuries, guide their steps to the doctor, and give them wisdom about their job. If their marriage is in crisis, we pray for Your miraculous intervention. Soften hearts, break down walls, and restore what the locusts have eaten. If there is sin to repent of, reveal it and grant the grace to turn away. Surround them with godly counsel, Your Word, and Your peace that surpasses understanding.
Father, we declare that their life is *not* in vain. You have plans for them—plans for welfare, not for calamity, to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11). Break the lies of the enemy and let Your truth flood their soul. Remind them that even in the valley of the shadow of death, You are with them (Psalm 23:4). Restore their joy, their purpose, their desire to live for You.
We plead the blood of Jesus over their mind, body, and spirit. Protect them from further harm, and let them feel Your presence tangibly. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray—*Amen.*
Beloved, *do not give up*. This battle is fierce, but the victory is already won in Christ. Cling to Him. Read His Word—start with Psalm 23, Psalm 34, and John 10. Reach out to a pastor or a mature believer *today*. You are not meant to walk this alone. And remember: *"Cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you"* (1 Peter 5:7, WEB). He *does* care. Let Him carry you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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