We hear the deep anguish in your heart, and we are grieved by the pain and despair you are carrying. First, we lift you up in thanksgiving that you have called upon the name of Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved, and it is only through Him that we can boldly approach the throne of grace to receive mercy in our time of need. You have done well to cry out to Him, for He alone is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
The weight of your burdens—the stress of provision, the weariness of responsibility, the loneliness of feeling overwhelmed, and the hopelessness that has led you to consider escape—these are not things our Lord ignores. He sees your struggles, and His heart breaks for you. In Matthew 11:28, Jesus says, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest."* He does not promise to remove all hardship, but He does promise to walk with you through it, to carry what you cannot, and to give you rest for your soul. You do not have to bear this alone.
Yet we must also speak truth in love: the enemy of your soul seeks to steal, kill, and destroy, and he has whispered lies to you—that death is peace, that abandonment is freedom, that your family would be better off without you. But these are deceits meant to drag you into darkness. Jesus said in John 10:10, *"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly."* Your life is precious to God, and He has a purpose for you, even in this season of suffering. To desire escape through death is to reject the hope and future He has for you. The pain you feel is real, but it is not the end of your story. Our God is the God of resurrection, of redemption, and of new beginnings.
You speak of wanting to live alone, free from the responsibility of caring for others. While it is understandable to feel weary, we must remind you that God designed us for community and for love—not isolation. In 1 Timothy 5:8, Scripture says, *"But if anyone doesn’t provide for his own, and especially his own household, he has denied the faith, and is worse than an unbeliever."* Your role as a husband and father is sacred, and though it is hard, it is also a calling from God. He will equip you for it, even when you feel unequal to the task. Do not let the enemy convince you that walking away is the answer. Instead, ask God to renew your strength, to restore your joy, and to show you how to lead your family in love and faith.
As for your work, we understand the toll that stress and anxiety take on the soul. If your current role as a project manager is crushing you, it may be time to seek God’s wisdom for a different path—one that allows you to provide for your family without destroying your peace. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, *"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."* This does not mean the path will be easy, but it will be guided by His hand. Have you sought His direction in this? Have you asked Him to open doors for work that aligns with your gifts and your need for rest? He is faithful to provide, even when the way seems impossible.
Financially, you say you are running out of money, and the fear of lack is suffocating. But Jesus reminds us in Matthew 6:31-33, *"Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well."* Your Heavenly Father knows your needs, and He is not blind to your suffering. Trust Him to provide, even if it comes in ways you do not expect. Have you brought your financial burdens before the church? Sometimes, God provides through the hands of His people. Do not let pride keep you from asking for help.
Most urgently, we must address the despair that has led you to consider ending your life. This is a lie from the pit of hell. Suicide is not peace—it is a permanent solution to a temporary struggle, and it leaves behind a wake of devastation for those you love. Your wife and children need you, not because you are perfect, but because you are theirs. Your presence in their lives matters more than you know. In Psalm 34:18, God promises, *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* He is near to you now, even in your brokenness. Turn to Him, not away from Him.
We also sense a deep spiritual weariness in you. Have you been filling your soul with the Word of God? Are you in fellowship with other believers who can lift you up? Isolation feeds despair, but community brings hope. Hebrews 10:24-25 says, *"Let’s consider how to provoke one another to love and good works, not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as you see the Day approaching."* You were not meant to walk this road alone.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious child of Yours who is carrying such a heavy burden. Lord, You see the depth of his pain—the exhaustion, the fear, the sense of hopelessness that has gripped his heart. We ask You to surround him with Your presence, to let him feel the nearness of Your Spirit in this moment. Break the lies of the enemy that have told him there is no way out, that death is the answer, or that his family would be better off without him. Lord, renew his mind with Your truth: that You have plans for him, plans for good and not for evil, to give him hope and a future.
Father, we ask for supernatural provision for his financial needs. Open doors for work that will sustain him without crushing his spirit. Give him wisdom to know when to rest, when to seek help, and when to trust You completely. Restore his joy in being a husband and father. Heal the wounds in his heart that have made him want to retreat from those he loves. Bind up his broken spirit and fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding.
Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and suicide that has taken hold of him. By the power of the blood of Jesus, we command it to flee and never return. Fill him instead with Your Holy Spirit—with comfort, with strength, with the assurance that You are his Provider, his Protector, and his Redeemer. Remind him that his life is not his own, for he was bought with a price. Give him the courage to keep fighting, to keep trusting, and to keep hoping in You.
We pray for his wife and children, Lord. Strengthen them, protect them, and let them be a source of encouragement to him. Soften his heart toward them and theirs toward him. Restore what has been broken in their relationships.
Finally, Father, we ask that You would draw him deeper into Yourself. Let him hunger for Your Word, thirst for Your presence, and find his rest in You alone. May he know, beyond any doubt, that You are with him, that You love him, and that You will never leave him nor forsake him.
In the mighty and saving name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Brother, we urge you: do not give up. The pain you feel today is not the end of your story. God is writing something beautiful, even in the midst of this struggle. Reach out to your pastor, to a trusted believer, or to a Christian counselor. You do not have to walk this path alone. Let the body of Christ come alongside you. And above all, keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and perfecter of your faith. He will see you through.
