We hear the deep anguish and turmoil in your heart, and we are grieved by the spiritual oppression and confusion you are experiencing. First, let us address something critical: the Bible is the living Word of God, holy and perfect, and it is *never* the source of imperfection, curses, or harm. The issue here is not with Scripture but with the spiritual forces at work around you—and the condition of your own heart in response. The Lord does not attack His children, but the enemy does seek to twist truth, sow discord, and turn us against God’s Word. What you are describing—vexation, control, and spiritual retaliation after reading Scripture—is not from the Lord but from the evil one, who fears the power of God’s Word and seeks to distort it in your mind.
Let us be very clear: the thoughts you’ve expressed—wishing destruction upon others, calling for their slaughter, and harboring hatred—are not of God. The Bible commands us, *"Don’t say, ‘I will pay back evil.’ Wait for Yahweh, and he will save you"* (Proverbs 20:22, WEB). And again, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you"* (Matthew 5:44, WEB). The anger and violence in your heart must be surrendered to Christ, for He alone can break the chains of bitterness and replace them with His peace. These feelings are a snare, and if left unchecked, they will harden your heart against the very God you are crying out to for help.
You also mentioned feeling like a "complete fool" for reading the Bible and then being attacked. Beloved, this is a lie from the pit of hell. The Word of God is a *weapon*, not a curse. It is *"living, and active, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and is able to discern the thoughts and intentions of the heart"* (Hebrews 4:12, WEB). When you read Scripture, you are engaging in spiritual warfare, and the enemy *will* retaliate—but not because the Bible is flawed. He retaliates because he is terrified of its power to transform you. Do not let him convince you to abandon the one thing that can set you free.
As for the idea that people are "thematically interacting" with you based on the Scripture you read, this is a classic tactic of spiritual oppression—making you feel observed, controlled, or cursed by external forces. But listen to the truth: *"You are of God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4, WEB). The Lord has given you authority over these torments. You do not have to fear them or give them power over your mind. Rebuke these thoughts in the name of Jesus, and command the enemy to flee. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7, WEB).
Now, let us address your mention of "genetics." We do not know what you are referring to specifically, but we know this: in Christ, you are a *new creation*. Your identity is not tied to your flesh, your lineage, or any earthly limitation. *"Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new"* (2 Corinthians 5:17, WEB). Whatever burdens you carry—whether physical, emotional, or spiritual—Jesus is greater. He can redeem, heal, and restore. Do not let the enemy convince you that you are trapped by something beyond God’s power to transform.
Lastly, we notice that while you invoked the name of Jesus, your words were filled with despair, anger, and confusion rather than faith. This is understandable given your suffering, but we must remind you: it is *only* through the name of Jesus that we have access to the Father, and it is *only* through faith in Him that we are saved. *"There is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). If you have not fully surrendered your life to Christ—if you have not repented of sin and trusted in His death and resurrection for your salvation—then that is the first step. Without Him, there is no peace, no protection, and no victory. But *with* Him, you have all things. *"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me"* (Philippians 4:13, WEB).
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Let us pray for you now with the authority and love of Christ:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up this beloved child who is under such heavy spiritual attack. Lord, we rebuke every lying spirit that has sought to twist Your holy Word in their mind, to turn them against Your truth, and to fill them with hatred, fear, and despair. We bind the enemy’s schemes and command him to flee in Jesus’ name. Father, we ask that You would break every chain of bitterness, anger, and confusion that has taken root. Replace it with Your peace that surpasses all understanding, Your love that casts out fear, and Your truth that sets captives free.
Lord, we pray for a fresh revelation of Your goodness and faithfulness. Remind this precious one that Your Word is a lamp to their feet and a light to their path (Psalm 119:105), not a curse but a lifeline. Holy Spirit, fill them anew with Your presence. Guard their mind from the enemy’s lies and renew their strength to stand firm in faith. Where there has been spiritual oppression, we declare freedom. Where there has been torment, we declare rest. Where there has been hatred, we declare Your love to flood their heart.
Father, if there is any unrepented sin—any bitterness, unforgiveness, or openness to the enemy—we ask that You would convict and cleanse. Lead them to repentance and restoration. And Lord, if they have not fully surrendered to You, we pray that today would be the day they give their life wholly to Christ, trusting in His finished work on the cross for their salvation.
We thank You, Jesus, that You are greater than any force that comes against us. We thank You that You have already won the victory, and we claim that victory now over this situation. May Your perfect love cast out all fear, and may Your truth expose every lie. We ask for Your protection, Your provision, and Your purpose to be made clear. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
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Beloved, we urge you to do the following:
1. **Repent of hatred and violence in your heart.** Ask God to cleanse you and fill you with His love. Unforgiveness and bitterness give the enemy a foothold (Ephesians 4:27).
2. **Put on the full armor of God** (Ephesians 6:10-18). This is spiritual warfare, and you must stand firm in truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and the Word of God.
3. **Read Scripture aloud.** There is power in speaking God’s Word. Try reading Psalm 91 or Ephesians 1 out loud as a declaration of truth over your life.
4. **Seek godly community.** Isolation makes you vulnerable. Find a Bible-believing church or trusted believers who can pray with you and speak truth into your life.
5. **Guard your mind.** Reject every thought that contradicts God’s Word. *"Bring every thought captive to the obedience of Christ"* (2 Corinthians 10:5, WEB).
You are not alone in this fight. The Lord is with you, and He is mightier than any force that comes against you. Cling to Him, and He will lead you to victory. *"The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life. Of whom shall I be afraid?"* (Psalm 27:1, WEB). Stand firm, beloved. The battle is the Lord’s.
