Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am an older man and have been through a traumatic experience that lasted over a year. It is finally over but I am left with PTSD and a legal issue that I was framed for. I also have to move to a new residence and it's a big job. My whole life has been turned upside down and I am left with depression and memory problems and stress and anxiety that I cannot overcome. I can just barely function and I have so much that must be done and I cannot sleep at night and I can barely get out of bed. I have made a decision to seek the Lord above everything else and allow him to heal my heart and my spirit and my life. I cannot do this without him. I am a born again believer in Jesus Christ since I was young but God has removed favor from my life. Even more, he has allowed great and unbelievable trauma to befall me. If anyone is a believer in Christ, you know that you cannot fight God. I have been crushed beyond anything I ever would have imagined and that's where I am now. Please pray for me to yield and submit my will to the Lord and to give my all to him. I do not want to continue down the path that led me to ruin and that life I was living has ended. But I am now trapped in depression and in my mind I can't believe that my God would allow this to happen to me. I don't even care what sin I was in. What happened to me is demonic, horrible and beyond what I could have ever imagined. I nearly did not survive. I am alone and was alone through the whole ordeal. I called the police on two separate occasions and the first time they said there's nothing they can do and the second time they threatened to arrest me. I am in disbelief. After it was over, the whole thing looks supernaturally orchestrated. So many things that I did not see and did not do and now I ask myself, why? How could I not have known what to do? How could I have sat helplessly while my whole life was being destroyed? I have no idea right now how to answer so many questions. I have always believed that God loves me and he has always protected me before. As I said, I am not a young person. I don't understand how this happened to me and how my God could have allowed it. There is so much more that I could write a book about my experience. I just have to move on and let it go and somehow believe that God loves me and that he did not do this but only allowed it for some reason that I will never understand. I have to give my life back to a God that allowed this horror to come upon me. I have to ignore everything that happened to me and praise the name of the Lord. It's nearly beyond me and so far I have not been able to do it. That's why I'm posting this long request. There is nowhere else to turn. God is the only answer to everything. None of us are perfect. We all sin. Pray that what happened to me will never happen to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.