DEAR ONE, YOU ARE BEING HONEST CONFESSING THIS AND THAT TAKES COURAGE. THE LORD ALREADY KNOWS WHAT YOU ARE FEELING IN YOUR HEART AND HE LONGS FOR YOU TO COME HAVE FELLOWSHIP WITH HIM. THE TIME FOR JESUS' RETURN CANNOT BE TOO FAR AWAY AND NOW MORE THAN ANY OTHER TIME WE MUST DRAW NEAR TO THE LORD. ALL CHRISTIANS HAVE GONE THROUGH "DRY" SPELLS WITH THEIR WALK WITH THE LORD IF THEY WERE HONEST ENOUGH TO ADMIT IT, SO YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN FEELING THE WAY THAT YOU FEEL. LET ME SUGGEST THAT YOU LISTEN TO SOME REALLY GOOD WORSHIP MUSIC, BEGIN TO WORSHIP GOD SIMPLY FOR WHO HE IS, HE WILL MAKE HIS PRESENCE KNOWN BECAUSE AS IT SAYS IN THE BIBLE, HE INHABITS THE PRAISES OF HIS PEOPLE. IN HIS HOLY PRESENCE THINGS CHANGE, THE MORE WE SEEK HIM, OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM WILL BECOME STRONGER. HE IS SUCH A LOVING AND CARING HEAVENLY FATHER AND HE IS FOREVER FAITHFUL. HE IS PURE LOVE AND FORGIVENESS AND PRAISE GOD, HE WILL NEVER CHANGE. YOU WILL BE IN MY PRAYERS. BLESSINGS!