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My Lord, it is me again, today I have come to you several times with the same question, with the same doubts. Lord is it possible that I am too hard headed or dumb to understand what you are telling me ? Is it possible that this testimonial and desire to talk to young people and tell them about myself comes from me or does it come from you? Is it the devil trying to taunt me into believing that I am a preacher and I can change the lives of young men and women around me. You know me Lord, it is not the first time I get into trouble, especially with you, I beg you Lord, I beg you intently, on my knees, I beg you Lord to tell me what it is you want. Is this why you have kept me alive, is it why you have sent me out into the world not once but several times, each time coming back in worst shape than the one before. What I do not understand is why I had to come and go several times, were you trying to say something and I was too dunb to understand. Lord I beg you and I beg my friends and all those who read this to pray for me, to ask My Lord Jesus, the Merciful, to have some mercy on his son, on me, and to let me know if the road I have started is what he has in mind. I have started the ball rolling Lord, you know that, I have already spoken with people who can help me minister to young men and women who might decide to change their ways if they listen to my words, ypu know my Jesus that I can knock out all the glomour and excitement out of street life, out of drugs and parties, but Lord there is one problem with this. I do not have the words to say to them, I am a simple man Lord, I do not know the Book like pastors and preachers do, I know the basics, You know My Lord that what comes out of my hands is yours, not mine, I could not sit here and write page after page of prayers and thoughts for others to read on my own, all this is yours Lord. I beg you touch my friends, my prayer warriors, all those souls that worry about my health and my family's well being, all these brave soldiers who have prayed and have helped me carry this cross that I carry. Lord touch one of them, touch several of them, touch all of them, My LORD I BEG YOU TO SPEAK TO ME THROUGH THEM, tell me if I am on the right track, tell me if this is the way. Understand, My Dear Father, I do not want to rush You, Lord I know that Your time is different to mine, I know that things will happen when ever you are ready, I have learned to accept that and the fact that even though none of my financial problems have been solved, THEY ARE ALL SOLVED, BY YOUR WILL AND YOUR LOVE FOR ME!!!! I am not worried about these Lord, I know one day, be it today, tomorrow or in one year you will come to me and say " My son, YOU HAVE FASTED ENOUGH, GO AND EAT A NICE JUICY STEAK FOR ME." Enjoy it for we have work to do. This does not worry me Lord, I am faithful to you and to my given word, I am just anxious to start on the way.
My Lord I am also a bit worried, I am not absolutely sure that this testimonial thing is what you want from me, I know that if it isn't you will find a way to let me know that this is not what you wat but meanwhile I have already spoken with people who are working on making arrangements for me to speak and share. Lord, I beg you to protect me from the dark one, Lord I am weak, I am a simple man and I know that times before when I spoke, it was not me speaking, it was YOU Lord. I beg you keep my pride in check, make me a humble man, NEVER LORD ALLOW ME TO FORGET- Never Lord allow me to forget that I am NOTHING without you. That everything I am, everything I have, everything I do and say belongs to you, COMES FROM YOU and will be returned to you once I have finished the mission you have for me on this Earth. NOTHING is mine to have Lord, not even the thoughts in my mind nor the hunger in my belly, they are yours too, for I belong to you and I am nothing but a puppet in your loving, merciful hands. I thank you Lord and I beg you for insight, I beg you touch my friends and prayer warriors so they may also receive the insight, the guidance I need to be sure that the way I have started is yours and not some trick of the sneaky one to make me believe I am now powerful and mighty. I have grown Lord, I know that many things have changed since the last time we had this same discussion and we argued on what to do and I decided to walk away and continue living in the world. we both know what happened then, you could have struck me down and impose your will on me, I am nothing before you ALLMIGHTY GOD, MERCIFUL GOD, I am nothing, less than an insect that can be cruches, You on the other hand Lord, hold the power over life and death in your hands, health and sickness, happiness and saddness. Lord you are mighty and powerful, and yet, you let insects like myself wonder doing whatever it is we want and you stand back and let us play even though you have work for us, you have reasons for us to be, you have a plan. Yes Lord this is You and you know who I am, You know who I am better than I do,m better than anyone will ever know because You made me , you decided it was my time to be, You said I need you and puff, here I was.
Again My Lord, I have walked away several times because your plans did not exactly fit with the image I had of myself or the image I was building of myself then. Today Lord, I believe in my heart that things are different, I believe that You and I are really friends this time, I believe that I have grown up Lord, I believe it is the time to walk your path. My Jesus I beg you, show me the way., Lord give me the strength and the courage TO PICK UP MY CROSS AND FOLLOW YOU!!! I will not fail I will not retreat, Lord I am your servant and your slave, show me what you want me to do, I will dedicate my life, my efforts, my last breath to fulfill the plan you have for me. Dear Jesus tday I feel that you have given me so much thorugh the years, so much and so often, that it is time that I start to give you back some of it.Lord I know that you do not ask for anything in return, you give and give without asking to be paid, Lord I know this but it is my duty, it is my obligation to stand before you, to kneel before you and wash your feet and the feet of all those whom I have hurt and I have offended through the years. Lord it is time that I look at all the faces I ignored and all the pain I shrugged off, all the hunger and the sickness I watched go by, without regret, without feeling, without a second thought, it is time Lord to pay back, what you have so unselfishly given me. Mt Lord my family, my parents, my brothers and sisters, Lord my friends, old and new, these are gifts you gave me for free Lord, I did not deserve them, I do not deserve them now, for I have done nothing to have this honor, to have this priviledge, allow me Lord to be worthy of your mercy and of your love. Thank you jesus for I know my prayer will be answered soon, TONIGHT.
My friends I beg you to pray for me tonight, I beg you to ask the Spirit to come upon you, to speak to you, to touch you. I know one, some or all of you will have a message for me, a message that will seal my fate for the rest of my days. My friends thank you, thank you for your prayers, for your support, for your kind encouraging words, I am humbled by them, I am humbled by all of you and your love and care, nothing I have done or said is mine, I could not fast for forty eight days without HIS support, without his love without FAITH IN HIM, nothing I have ever written in these pages comes from me either, EVERYTHING COMES FROM HIM WITH LOVE AND CARE FOR ALL OF YOU, NOT FOR ME, I am just a simple man trying to find the way to God and salvation. The way has been long and painful, there is blood and tears paving that road especially for those around me but I feel it is coming to an end , I feel blessed to know you and be able to pray for you every day. You are all in my heart and daily prayers always.
A friend sent me this a few minutes ago, I think it is great and I translated it freely so I could share it with all of you :
ALWAYS GIVE THE BEST
AND THE BEST WILL COME TO YOU ......
Sometimes people are egotistical, ilogical, and senseless
Even then..... forgive them.
If you are nice, people may accuse you of being egotistical and wanting something from them,
Even then....... be nice.
If you are a winner, you will have false friends and true enemies
Even then ....... win.
If you are honest and true, people may cheat and take advantage of you,
Even then ...... be honest and true.
What took you years to build, someone can tear down in a matter of hours
Even then ..... build.
If you have peace and you are happy,people masy be envious of you,
Even then.... be happy..
Whatever good you do today, may be forgotten tomorrow,
Even then ..... be good..
If you give the world your best, it may never be enough,
Even then .... give your best.
AT THE END OF TIME ........
EVERYTHING IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE BETWEEN YOU AND GOD.
IT NEVER WAS BETWEEN YOU AND THEM
Mother Teresa of Calcuta
Just a little wisdom from a great Lady that sits besides God in Heaven. I love you all. PEACE!!!! Thank you Jesus in you we trust.
My Lord I am also a bit worried, I am not absolutely sure that this testimonial thing is what you want from me, I know that if it isn't you will find a way to let me know that this is not what you wat but meanwhile I have already spoken with people who are working on making arrangements for me to speak and share. Lord, I beg you to protect me from the dark one, Lord I am weak, I am a simple man and I know that times before when I spoke, it was not me speaking, it was YOU Lord. I beg you keep my pride in check, make me a humble man, NEVER LORD ALLOW ME TO FORGET- Never Lord allow me to forget that I am NOTHING without you. That everything I am, everything I have, everything I do and say belongs to you, COMES FROM YOU and will be returned to you once I have finished the mission you have for me on this Earth. NOTHING is mine to have Lord, not even the thoughts in my mind nor the hunger in my belly, they are yours too, for I belong to you and I am nothing but a puppet in your loving, merciful hands. I thank you Lord and I beg you for insight, I beg you touch my friends and prayer warriors so they may also receive the insight, the guidance I need to be sure that the way I have started is yours and not some trick of the sneaky one to make me believe I am now powerful and mighty. I have grown Lord, I know that many things have changed since the last time we had this same discussion and we argued on what to do and I decided to walk away and continue living in the world. we both know what happened then, you could have struck me down and impose your will on me, I am nothing before you ALLMIGHTY GOD, MERCIFUL GOD, I am nothing, less than an insect that can be cruches, You on the other hand Lord, hold the power over life and death in your hands, health and sickness, happiness and saddness. Lord you are mighty and powerful, and yet, you let insects like myself wonder doing whatever it is we want and you stand back and let us play even though you have work for us, you have reasons for us to be, you have a plan. Yes Lord this is You and you know who I am, You know who I am better than I do,m better than anyone will ever know because You made me , you decided it was my time to be, You said I need you and puff, here I was.
Again My Lord, I have walked away several times because your plans did not exactly fit with the image I had of myself or the image I was building of myself then. Today Lord, I believe in my heart that things are different, I believe that You and I are really friends this time, I believe that I have grown up Lord, I believe it is the time to walk your path. My Jesus I beg you, show me the way., Lord give me the strength and the courage TO PICK UP MY CROSS AND FOLLOW YOU!!! I will not fail I will not retreat, Lord I am your servant and your slave, show me what you want me to do, I will dedicate my life, my efforts, my last breath to fulfill the plan you have for me. Dear Jesus tday I feel that you have given me so much thorugh the years, so much and so often, that it is time that I start to give you back some of it.Lord I know that you do not ask for anything in return, you give and give without asking to be paid, Lord I know this but it is my duty, it is my obligation to stand before you, to kneel before you and wash your feet and the feet of all those whom I have hurt and I have offended through the years. Lord it is time that I look at all the faces I ignored and all the pain I shrugged off, all the hunger and the sickness I watched go by, without regret, without feeling, without a second thought, it is time Lord to pay back, what you have so unselfishly given me. Mt Lord my family, my parents, my brothers and sisters, Lord my friends, old and new, these are gifts you gave me for free Lord, I did not deserve them, I do not deserve them now, for I have done nothing to have this honor, to have this priviledge, allow me Lord to be worthy of your mercy and of your love. Thank you jesus for I know my prayer will be answered soon, TONIGHT.
My friends I beg you to pray for me tonight, I beg you to ask the Spirit to come upon you, to speak to you, to touch you. I know one, some or all of you will have a message for me, a message that will seal my fate for the rest of my days. My friends thank you, thank you for your prayers, for your support, for your kind encouraging words, I am humbled by them, I am humbled by all of you and your love and care, nothing I have done or said is mine, I could not fast for forty eight days without HIS support, without his love without FAITH IN HIM, nothing I have ever written in these pages comes from me either, EVERYTHING COMES FROM HIM WITH LOVE AND CARE FOR ALL OF YOU, NOT FOR ME, I am just a simple man trying to find the way to God and salvation. The way has been long and painful, there is blood and tears paving that road especially for those around me but I feel it is coming to an end , I feel blessed to know you and be able to pray for you every day. You are all in my heart and daily prayers always.
A friend sent me this a few minutes ago, I think it is great and I translated it freely so I could share it with all of you :
ALWAYS GIVE THE BEST
AND THE BEST WILL COME TO YOU ......
Sometimes people are egotistical, ilogical, and senseless
Even then..... forgive them.
If you are nice, people may accuse you of being egotistical and wanting something from them,
Even then....... be nice.
If you are a winner, you will have false friends and true enemies
Even then ....... win.
If you are honest and true, people may cheat and take advantage of you,
Even then ...... be honest and true.
What took you years to build, someone can tear down in a matter of hours
Even then ..... build.
If you have peace and you are happy,people masy be envious of you,
Even then.... be happy..
Whatever good you do today, may be forgotten tomorrow,
Even then ..... be good..
If you give the world your best, it may never be enough,
Even then .... give your best.
AT THE END OF TIME ........
EVERYTHING IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE BETWEEN YOU AND GOD.
IT NEVER WAS BETWEEN YOU AND THEM
Mother Teresa of Calcuta
Just a little wisdom from a great Lady that sits besides God in Heaven. I love you all. PEACE!!!! Thank you Jesus in you we trust.
