Kristijan
Disciple of Prayer
Hi everyone 
Hope you are all having a wonderful day! I am writing this because I am URGENTLY in need of a special prayer. Please pray for my family and myself. I have 2 brothers, one younger and one older. We often argue with each other and never seem to get along. One day we can get along and the next day we argue. My parents are the most wonderful people I could ever ask for. They provide everything for us. My father works so hard to support our family. He is getting older and older each day. He is a truck driver. I pray that he is always safe on the road every day. These past few years everything has been going downhill for us. My dad is not making much money as he used to and we have so many bills to pay. I personally am doing really bad in school. I have really bad memory and I am terrible at all my classes in college, especially math. It is my fourth time repeating this math class I am taking at a community college. I started college in Fall 2010 and it is now 2014. I should have been done with community college in 2012 but my poor memory and me having a hard time with math is holding me back. It is holding me back so much to the point I just want to commit suicide. Math and my college studies is not the only reason I wish to commit suicide. I am also very anti-social. I have only a few friends and I am almost always shy to start a conversation with someone at school or work. I am 22 years old and I never had a girlfriend nor have I ever had the ability to hang out with a friend or "friends" because I have ZERO friends. At this time of my life I am more worried about finishing community college and finding a good job. I plan on going to a 4 year college but I don't think it will happen because I am always so forgetful in all my classes and especially math and I can never seem to remember anything I learn or listen in class. I take notes and I try to remember something from them. But during exam day my mind just goes blank and I fail almost all my exams. All these obstacles I am dealing with just put so much stress in my life and sometimes at night when everyone is asleep I tend to cry myself to sleep because I keep thinking about how terrible my life really is. I keep thinking will I ever finish community college. Will I ever find any friends friends. Am I always going to be shy or anti-social. Will I ever find a girlfriend or will I ever get married. I keep looking in the mirror and sometimes tell myself "I wish I was never born." I am often so depressed that almost every other day I just "leave" the house and just drive my car around places and waste gas for no reason. Sometimes when I am driving I say "I wish a semi-truck would just hit me" so I could die. I always look angry, depressed, sad or want to start a fight with someone. I try to be happy or when someone asks me "How I am doing" I always reply "Good" but deep down I am not doing good. My family cannot afford a doctor or health insurance because we have so many loans, and other bills to pay on time. So, I strongly ask you that you pray for me and my family. Please pray for my life to change. I would love for my life to just transform so I can be a good person. So that I can have more faith in God. So that I have no addiction in my life, especially porn addiction or other negative thoughts. So that I can have positive energy and always be happy. So that I can live how God wants me to live. And so I can finish college, restore my memory, find a good job and so I can support my parents and brothers. And so that I have faith in God and go to church every Sunday and pray. Please pray for me before it's too late and I do something stupid. Which I am thinking of doing very soon if I don't pass my math class and my math exams by the end of this college semester. Thank You So Much Everyone! May God Bless You All Everyday!
Hope you are all having a wonderful day! I am writing this because I am URGENTLY in need of a special prayer. Please pray for my family and myself. I have 2 brothers, one younger and one older. We often argue with each other and never seem to get along. One day we can get along and the next day we argue. My parents are the most wonderful people I could ever ask for. They provide everything for us. My father works so hard to support our family. He is getting older and older each day. He is a truck driver. I pray that he is always safe on the road every day. These past few years everything has been going downhill for us. My dad is not making much money as he used to and we have so many bills to pay. I personally am doing really bad in school. I have really bad memory and I am terrible at all my classes in college, especially math. It is my fourth time repeating this math class I am taking at a community college. I started college in Fall 2010 and it is now 2014. I should have been done with community college in 2012 but my poor memory and me having a hard time with math is holding me back. It is holding me back so much to the point I just want to commit suicide. Math and my college studies is not the only reason I wish to commit suicide. I am also very anti-social. I have only a few friends and I am almost always shy to start a conversation with someone at school or work. I am 22 years old and I never had a girlfriend nor have I ever had the ability to hang out with a friend or "friends" because I have ZERO friends. At this time of my life I am more worried about finishing community college and finding a good job. I plan on going to a 4 year college but I don't think it will happen because I am always so forgetful in all my classes and especially math and I can never seem to remember anything I learn or listen in class. I take notes and I try to remember something from them. But during exam day my mind just goes blank and I fail almost all my exams. All these obstacles I am dealing with just put so much stress in my life and sometimes at night when everyone is asleep I tend to cry myself to sleep because I keep thinking about how terrible my life really is. I keep thinking will I ever finish community college. Will I ever find any friends friends. Am I always going to be shy or anti-social. Will I ever find a girlfriend or will I ever get married. I keep looking in the mirror and sometimes tell myself "I wish I was never born." I am often so depressed that almost every other day I just "leave" the house and just drive my car around places and waste gas for no reason. Sometimes when I am driving I say "I wish a semi-truck would just hit me" so I could die. I always look angry, depressed, sad or want to start a fight with someone. I try to be happy or when someone asks me "How I am doing" I always reply "Good" but deep down I am not doing good. My family cannot afford a doctor or health insurance because we have so many loans, and other bills to pay on time. So, I strongly ask you that you pray for me and my family. Please pray for my life to change. I would love for my life to just transform so I can be a good person. So that I can have more faith in God. So that I have no addiction in my life, especially porn addiction or other negative thoughts. So that I can have positive energy and always be happy. So that I can live how God wants me to live. And so I can finish college, restore my memory, find a good job and so I can support my parents and brothers. And so that I have faith in God and go to church every Sunday and pray. Please pray for me before it's too late and I do something stupid. Which I am thinking of doing very soon if I don't pass my math class and my math exams by the end of this college semester. Thank You So Much Everyone! May God Bless You All Everyday!
