Bell85
Disciple of Prayer
I've been living in ups and downs for a long time. I have 5 children and I have faced eviction so many times. I don't know what to do anymore I try my hardest to provide for them but it seems like I do it on my own. My luck has to be the worst I've seen and I hold on to a man that may be no good for me and my kids even though he is their father. I come to Lord ready to give up and shut completely down. I haven't been to church in years and that hurts me. I do find myself praying more and more these days but in fear of losing everything that I worked for. I have sinned and I wonder if this is my punishment and I ask myself why God? I just want to be a great mom for my kids. I'm powerless and insecure about everything . I'm tired and at times I think my boys are the only reason I'm still alive. I'm sorry for whatever I've done but I just want change. I hear ppl say be grateful for what you have but that's hard when you can barely feed your kids and when you do its not enough. I'm just tired. Nobody knows the way I feel and I've asked for help but keep running into dead ends. I just don't understand I try to be humble and a descent human being but that gets me in worst situations it feels like. I'm coming here before you again to ask for a miracle not for me but for them. in Jesus name I pray AMEN
