I’m torn, I don’t understand this situation I’m in. I did the right thing and I’m going through so much while my husband is able to live life as if nothing. He doesn’t have financial issues, he’s seeing someone else, he comes and goes as he pleases. I’m ### weeks pregnant and have been alone the whole time due to his errors he has cheated, gave me STIs, committed sexual assault and denies everything. How do I love him? why can’t I just let go? He is the father of my children forever so I want him to do better and get help because the law doesn’t allow me to keep the children from him. I’m so conflicted and hurt. I had to quit my job that I loved. I never got my registry license because I was working to help out always putting my family first. Now I’m trying to re-qualify to take my exam and taking classes that I cannot afford begging my family for help because I need this to be able to afford my kids and provide. I don’t even have money to pay my bills or rent. My bank account is always on negative. My car is broken down and cost a lot to repair. I’m just not doing good in my life right now. I hope I can get through this quickly. I hope my husband doesn’t abandon his responsibilities because he’s focused on chasing women like always. After what he’s done I don’t even know why I want him to think of me. He never cared. All these years of hard efforts to my husband for nothing.